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2009-09-29T03:21:00.003+10:00

i always yo yo between feeling being down that i have no friends and the other spectrum. of course i feel better when i talk to janet and rachel or had a good night out with aly...but the down days are more than the ups..feel lonley sometimes. :( just had MacD shaker fries that janet sent to me, so awesome.

wh having exams now.but hes still playing dota -_- im so worried his mom will b totally angry with me if he fails this semester.pls God, dont let him fail..sigh i wanna go back for CNY and dont want to be totally @#$%^&*( by his mom.

life just doesnt cut it these days.

2009-09-28T00:41:00.006+10:00

its been really long, but ive hadnt had the motivation to write anything because i feel ive got nothing to share!

went to eat at Big Bowl Noodles because it just opened but sadly to say,like most food away from home sucks.the Asian food in Australia tends to blend into each other until each cuisine is no different from another. or else its just plain bad.

Gucci is doing fine but ive come to a deep realisation its really hard to keep an animal. peepee, poopoo, food, showers, nail cutting, and we cannot leave him home alone, cos he'll bark the house down.. woe the day i have children. on a side note, jme once told me a story that her moms friend lost a lot of weight after giving birth, i hope that is me too.

most of all, its so hard to house him when we go away for school holidays, i.e. jun and nov-mar
also, school is changing their calender year, we will now start school in 1st march not feb,and thus end later in the year, around end nov. i dont really care, doesnt make much of a difference.

i doubt i have much readers especially since it was dead, but friends, hello, i am still alive ^ ^

edit :
ive just re-read past entries and wow, january till sept is a long time! wenhu and i celebrated our 2nd year anni in july as we didnt return to sg, nothing happened.haha. so lame.its only our 2nd year and we're so lost for ideas and it has lost romaticism. i am no longer the active chaser in the relationship but neither is he, he never was. *displeased frown i wished at least there was some element of surprise once in awhile.SIAN - totally defines it. to live life day by day....so draggy. my friend is getting married in dec, so i have decided that if wenhu does a boring dinner proposal i will just say no and he will have to try again. MUAHAHAHAA.

2009-01-15T18:25:00.003+11:00

pictures of my cute ass dog.he likes tummy rubs, biting fingers, wee-ing all over the house, chasing people,sleeping with his head looking like its gonna drop off.

2009-01-12T17:56:00.002+11:00

after janet told me about little nyonya, i watched 20 episodes before realising its worse than Zhen Qing. ZQ was like long, but they had more 'heart' it in, plus they made a lot of things happen in those 200+episodes. LN has less issues and they choose to drag it out for sooooooooo long. therefore, IM NOT PLEASED. its not that great a show. when i first told my mom about me watching it, she even said it was predictable. if she can predict it, its DAMN predictable.

my birthday was fun!! aly, wh, and some other friends went to the GoKart indoor racecourse.it wasnt very big, but it was pretty fun, I learnt how to drift properly. :) that was exciting. then we went for italian dining, food was so-so, not like its heyday. after, Karaoke!haha the girls got a room to ourselves and we sang ABBA and all! next day we went to a friend's bday party and i was really glad about it, i met 4 korean girls who are damn nice. we're going be a "kye" which means a group that hangs out regularly.lol. thats what they said.and they're all wacky which makes it more interesting!if i go to korea i'll have someone to look out for me :)

2008-12-29T14:25:00.002+11:00

yesterday was a lucky day, got free deep fried fritters with char-siew for lunch from the nice dimsum lady who remembered us as frequent patrons, and a free dinner from the KFC boy who mistook my 2 10s for 2 20s, gave me back my money and then some, so he kinda paid me to have dinner..haha.and the best of all, wh bought me a Chloe waller ^ ^ we were just shopping, at the back of my mind i wanted a new one, since my Gucci was well worn, so when i was looking around he said i could get it.many thanks!!

December,many birthdays this year.and it has rounded up my end of the year..2009! to many new beginnings*clinks imaginary champage flute.

removed my powdergel nails ( fake long nails - for those in the dark) it feels very liberating.couldnt do alot of things :(

oh! we bought Gucci a Gucci collar :) laters!

2008-12-23T23:30:00.002+11:00

took Gucci for his 2nd vaccination today. i think its still hurting him, so if we touch him he gets really upset and whines terribly. so sad! :(

made chicken-a-la king for dinner, learnt it from mom, but it doesnt taste as good as hers.

xmas is coming.bought 2 lobsters for us to have, on the eve or something.i bought them because xmas feels so lackluster to me.its so depressing!although in singapore i wouldnt really want to go out with the swarming crowds, theres no chrissy cheer at all!!so...

even on the internet, i find nothing to do.ARGH. i cant find a job either.fustrating.all this time on my hands.

2008-12-11T15:04:00.002+11:00

ok everybody, no worries. Gucci has toned down. plus now i make wh sleep on my side of the bed, so he gets to sayang him when he whines. LOL. :p hes really cute, i wont give him up! and i cant bring him back t singapore, cos they quarantine him for a month when we fly back again to aussie. he'll get really bad separation anxiety! poor thing. gonna put him up at a friend's aunt's place, shes a dog lover.

well, nothing much to report. need to get some things done at school, for korea trip if i can get in. might go for tony rama's tonight!

oh and i also am gonna be back on the 31st jan but leaving 14th feb.ARGH.

welcome to the world.

2008-12-04T17:51:00.003+11:00

thats his little house lols.they didnt have a blue one...and his blue bowl says prince in the middle!!lol

my friend jac with his new mohawk.lols.

ok, mayb its a little tacky, but ive named my new Maltese X Pomeranian ; Gucci . hes my little precious baby..couldnt think of a nicer one..until after i named him Gucci. Now im thinking Alistair.but its too late.everyone knos him as gucci and he responds already. GOD DAMN FACEBOOK. now everytime i tell someone his name, i feel soooo paiseh, cos it seems sooo childish.lol.im so stupid sometimes.but anyway, he is precious.so gucci then gucci LAH.

when he fell asleep he tucked his paw under his head!!so cute!

ahhhhh but im getting over the gushy stage alr. DO YOU KNO that he whines every night so i have to pat him to sleep and then, he wakes up extra early abouts 7am, and whines cos HE WANTS TO PLAY.if he doesnt get his way he pees and poops everywhere, also when we go out and leave him at home, not just even that, BUT EVEN WHEN we go to the bedroom where he cannot see us, he refuses to follow us in, we have to carry him!!UGGHHHH. and at 7am, he can whine the whollleeeee day, cos he had so much good sleep with me patting him.OMFG. then when i suggested we might sell him while hes young, so hes more resale-able, so that he can have a good home, and he can readjust quickly before he gets to attached to us, wh throws a fit!!

i swear to fucking god...$%^& i mean, if we dont really have the capacity to take care of him, esp when we go back to singapore, the poor thing with have seperation anxiety and shit what right!now dont give me all that talk about doing the thinking before we bought it. I DID. i thought it hard and through, and i believed i could handle him.but 5 days of non-stop whining everymorning at 7am when i usually get up at noon....plus having to 'entertain' the dog, for fear hes bored and lonley..i actually sit on the floor and drag his bloody stuffed cat around me so he can chase it..

ok.thats a whole lot of complaing.lets see how it goes. we're taking him to the park on saturday, and together with us when aly and i go do our nails.

2008-11-27T18:11:00.002+11:00

Global gathering was truly the heavyweight champion of dance festivals. ATB, sasha, Above&beyond were sooooooooooo good.i never throught i'd be so into electro/house/trance.i was on a crusing high for the first 5 hours and then although i took somemore, :( i lost it..so..sigh.that kinda sucks.but i enjoyed it overall, partying like mad, having shades on even when the tent was so freaking dark, dancing with friends and enjoying life.i wanna go for another rave, but no ones really up for it, so theres no point in that.

plus..my comedown was bad. i cant believe i had one AFTER the whole thing, like after a day went by then BOOOM. ugh. nausea, fatigue, mood swings and lack of appetite.i almost thought i was preggers till aly told me she had some really bad side effects as well.

anyway, BORED.i wanna pull my brains out.i wanna b back in sg where i can at least shop with $50 in my pocket.

2008-11-12T13:25:00.002+11:00

yesterday i took the jap and business stats exam, have to say im kinda pleased with myself.with the time i crammed myself silly i think i did alright, enough to get a credit at least ^ ^

AND!today i had my driving assessment!!i passed!!!!!!!!!!WHOOOOOOOOOO i was jumping home..sweeeeetttt.now i can drive legally.ahhaha.kinda.still have to complete 25hrs of supervised driving, but that can be completed in a month and i really will be legal to drive even in singapore.DAMN SHIOK i tell u!though i think in singapore its too scary.too many cars.

but.urgh so ironic.after the mush post, now im so annoyed.its that time of the month and my emotions are amplified X 100000000000. so. hmph.

one more exam on friday and then on the 23rd its global gathering..totally E-ness. ^ ^ jac got blue astroboys for us.

2008-11-06T15:42:00.002+11:00

i still remember that there was this period of time that i felt this way.
but im gonna blog abt it again anyway.

its the BIOLOGICAL CLOCK.

yeah again. ive always been partial to having kids. i think they're adorable when brought up the right way, meaning they dont act like little brats. and now i just keep wishing i had one. i do think that its also because if i have one, i'll have no need to study for the impending exams, no need to study anymore.but AIYAH, everyone knows that that is such an ideal.i doubt i can lead that kind of life easily.i need my degree first, then work at a MNC etc etc. so boring.
BUT i swear, i really do want to skip to the part i have a bundle of joy.

*mush alert, dont read and then mention this, or else we'll all be embarrassed*

baby, i love you for the bottom of my bottomless heart, which is why i think im having all these motherly emotions. i used to be afraid of putting myself out there for you. i never thought we were so durable. im so glad your with me, so glad u are the one to hold my hand and soothe my worries. even though the chances that a 20 and 21 year old might make it to 100 are slim,seem stupid and infantile, childish, i just wanna take the comfort in knowing that i've had you for this long. when u've just went to shower, i already start to miss your warmth, your scent. you're too essential!come home soon, im waiting.

2008-11-05T19:16:00.004+11:00

mom msged me this morning, "barack obama is a good speaker etc etc" he finally won this morning afterall the hooha. i woke up to "democratics win by landslide victory", all the channels on telly were streaming his speech. i wonder if he will really change the world, by the change he believes in for America.

exams next tue, and then wed is driving practical assessment, which means if i pass i will get my provisional liscence!!!!!!!wheeeee. :)

but im still trying to focus for my studies...sucks man.uni isnt great, it isnt for me, but i have to get tho to go somewhere right?RIGHT?omg..convince me im right, plus thats what everyone says.

haha as sick as it sounds, the word im into is 'peepeetouch' of the (yes, i know) crude, vulgar movie, 'you dont mess with the zohan'. but its funnnyyyy.

off to eat summore pizzaaa to add to my oodles of fatty fats.

on a jetplane

2008-10-29T15:10:00.005+11:00

my mind is on a jetplane somewhere..i have a korean test and final presentation due tmr, barely skimmed anything.but you should already kno thats me..

im not gonna lie, im coming right out to say that, im happy wh's mom is leaving on Sunday. *phew im just tired of entertaining her, and maintaining a good impression. but thats not to say i've lied or mislead about anything,
i prefer to get up at the time i want to, and not because shes banging around the kitchen,
i prefer to eat out when i want, because i feel like it and i dont worry about the cost,
i like to have alone time/二人世界 with my bf, because everyone knows 3s a crowd,
im okay with chit-chatting with her and giving her massages, but sometimes im just not that enthusiastic.
and to summarize, after doing all those things, i like to sleep late nights, so dont complain :(

So..day-light saving has come into effect! we are now one hour ahead of singapore!

And yesterday was her birthday, we went to a famous Steak house on Sunday, and the Casino after, where she won $120+. Yesterday, Tues we went to Korean BBQ for steamboat and BBQ obviously. Now it was not run of the mill like SeoulBBQ, the restaurants here are pretty awesome,its Buffet style and comes with really nice authentic Korean fresh meats and seafood, both marinated and raw.

And i bought her a birthday cake, we came home and had it, since we were sooo full, stuffing ourselves silly. i bought her this cute teddy bear candle, since a woman's age shouldnt be revealed, haha.

yeah..so my days pass oh so slowly..then again..
after this week ends, its study break, and then exams!!!
OH GOLLY GOLLY GOSH!!haha ok lame expression, should i use KNNBCCBSMLJ@#$%^ lols. SMLJ is si mi lan jiao if anyone didnt get it.
11/11 Jap Exam & Business Stats
14/11 Organisational Behaviour.

By the way janet, im using the same textbook at you!!!i got my assignments and exam paper if you want! :)

2008-10-19T22:39:00.003+11:00

Amy commented on my tagboard, so i visited hers.omg, this is one of the few quizes that i have found to be 99% accurate, lol.now now, dont judge me..there are quite a few negative characteristics in there!but its really true..if only they made a book like this for every step of ur life hey..

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
<< this is..a warped way of looking at me, lets put it that way.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

wh, his mom and i went to northbridge today.yum cha-ed and had our hair cut.i was happily babbling away to the korean hairdressers.haha.fun!the ahjusshi was so nice, he curled my hair for me for free!and gave me a discount. ^ ^

2008-10-17T15:38:00.001+11:00

we took pictures awhile ago, posting 2 now :) haha..

i think we've more or less decided im going?idk..i think so..yes..

2008-10-12T18:16:00.003+11:00

argh...i cant make up my mind.rachel just called.shes is going next year t Korea as well.our unis are really close to each other and its got me super excited..dongdaemun, the shopping district is in another district just beside the uni areas.sighs.i wanna go..i really wanna go.

but, i dont wanna leave u,leave us behind.

psshhhhffftttt

2008-10-11T00:58:00.003+11:00

tired of trying to think of the way to go..

mom has given the go ahead for me to go to Korea next year, mid-year.but where does that put us?what happens?u came here for me, but it seems im leaving.your mom might think im a totally bitch..shes alr semi-decided for you to go back t sg if i go, to Curtin in Singapore.that means u pack up and leave when i do..simultanously.

1 year apart..i guess you need to give me the security i require to tell my mom and myself, giving up this opportunity to go to korea's famous uni that all locals dream of entering and living the life i dream of, inc. of 5k grant and the chance to explore the world, with my parents footing all bills,tell me its worth it for you.

i cant go and then hear you say " I dont love you, like i loved you yesterday.."MyChemicalRomance

Perth Royal Show

2008-10-05T01:11:00.008+10:00

i was Royally happy!as happy as a royal?hahaha we finally got the the Showgrounds after a week's wait, cos wh was having exams.

I wanted to spend money wisely, sadly, i got conned by a honey-tounged man who made me try again and again at this game where you throw a ball into the tub, but the tub is angled so that the ball bounces out,as the ball is hard plastic. So as u can imgine, i spent $60, and almost didnt win anything, cos he said things like '$20, 5 balls and if u get 2 in you get your money back" so attractive right the terms!!!omg so i parted with $60 all together and i got like 0 in...

eventualy i was in despair and couldnt bear to spend any more, that i was so sad, he gave me this pig.actually i wanted a carebear but he said no cos i didnt really 'win'.#$%^&*

then i tried really hard to win on a bottle game, you're supposed to use a ring on a string tied to a rod aka, like fishing but with a wooden napkin holder, and make the bottle stand up ( its lying on its side) , you win. so i tried like 2 times and wh once, then our friend FINALLY won me a 'my little pony'!!!oh god its so cute ^ ^ thats the blue pony in the last picture. to show you how big the stuffed toys are, i'll show you the pony being naughty, its trying to nibble my foot, and it took my hairband too!!

so yes, look at its size in relation to my foot.

finally, wh played an air rifle shooting game and won me the small teddy. u cant see its face properly in the first picture so here it is.

and on 2nd thought, he didnt really win it, he tried twice (failed) and the man gave it to me out of pity...

After spending a heck of a lotta money on games, prolly more than a 100, i was more conservative.
We went on 1 ride

the Sky Walker (the only reference to Star Wars was the intial theme song, thereafter they played pop)
p.s. i got my face painted as a pirate, so thats why i have this black patch around my eye.

and then a haunted house maze. it was kinda silly, wenhu saw the people there waiting to scare us already and told me, but i went ok , turned around and paid attention to the tour guide and then the 'scarer' had me screaming for dear life...even tho i knew. -_-

i also petted a baby lamb, pretty cutesy.but stinks.
we saw these chooks, they're called.weird hen things that look...just weird.

we were also unfortunately caught in the midst of rats, cows and bulls shitting.....just as we were observing them.dont worry no picture.

ate lots a cotton candy and nonsense..had my fill for the day. came back with one bag of Super Sour Lemon Drops. they are #$%^&* sour, way way way worse than Warheads, you kno the childhood sweet everyone was crazy abt for awhile?

<3peace out

i couldnt take a really clear picture of the night scene, its kinda hard, so this is the best shot from my house's balcony, its the city.

2008-09-28T00:03:00.001+10:00

ive invested so much in this relationship of mine,
its got me worried.
i look at others,and how they manage their life.
im not doing very well....
where i need to go, who i need to be.
fuck.

2008-09-17T17:05:00.002+10:00

its wednsday. one day of the week which i stay home alone cos i have no classes. enjoying a smoke while i write the entry. feeling nice and relaxed.

which i shouldnt be btw, i have an assignment to complete and 2 tests to revise for. gee im a whiz arent i -_-

cheak has requested pictures of my crib. but seriously. the house is in perpetual mess. so, wait till this friday. wh's moms coming on sat and so on fri i will clean out the house. i think tmr i'll go to ikea so i can buy storage solutions of all the itsy bitsy stuff lying around. trust me, theres a whole lot of them. i'll take a picture of how i solved that problem as well. i got a electic eraser as well!! haha its like the a small hand-held plastic cased thing-ma-jig that spins the eraser around so u dont have to rub so hard and tear a hole in ur paper when u do it manually and get so damn aggressive. lols.

ytd wh was sweet as, he skipped school cos i missed my jap class and was pissy ^ ^ we went to northbridge, had some viet grub. not too bad. and i saw durian milkshake. had to order it. O-K, but not as good as the real thing of course *sighs. then we bought a whole box of snacks and drinks for the mid-autumn celebration. i love how my club is so rich, i spend like its my own money! :p shhh, dont tell.

okie dokies. i will update pictures soon. *pinkie promise

things u think you know, but u dont. (or do you...haha)

2008-09-11T17:03:00.003+10:00

When i walk away angry/furious/mad,
follow me

When i stare at your mouth,
kiss me

When i push you,
hug so tight and don't let go

When i am quiet,
ask "whats wrong".

When i ignore,
give me utmost attention.

When i pull away,
pull back.

when i baby talk you,
do your bo-chap face (that is also am-chio-ing) that makes me laugh.

when i am unhappy (due to beauty-related issues),
tell me i am beautiful (and mean it!!).

When i cry,
stoke me as if i was a fragile bauble.

When i am scared,
protect me.

When i lie on your lap,
stroke my forehead.

When i hug peepee (bolster),
let me.

When im sick,
stay with me day & night.

When i am fidgeting,
look at me and smile; even if ur busy.

When i say i'm a-ok,
i usually dont mean it.

When you break my heart
the pain never really goes away.

When i say i love you,
it means forever.

When i smile,
know that its you.

When i run to you crying,
the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking?"

2008-09-10T19:58:00.002+10:00

OH MY FUCKING GOD.im just tired looking at the amount of work for these 3 weeks.

11th Sept Korean test
15th Sept Meet with Singapore General Hospital & National Healthcare Group people.(free dinner at All Seasons Hotel.AHAHAHA)
16th Sept Jap test
19th Sept Jap test & Assignment , Business Stats mid-sem test
23rd Sept Critical Essay for Organisational Behaviour
25th Sept Korean test
29th Sept Asian Cultures EXAM
and the month of Oct? more tests, more assignments..

just wanna say

CHAO CHEE BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. Ching is soooooooo super duper cute ^ ^

idle

2008-09-05T18:08:00.002+10:00

seems like all my entries of late have been wrought with boredom.. what can i say, perth is really a dead town.im pretty excited about Global Gathering though. jac got me my ticket alr. wh declined the offer. ppfft.

haha, i taught my mom how to skype chat the other day. she knew how to call but not to utilize the chat(type) function. it was pretty funny. every other sentence was like "ohh..." "wah, mummy dont know lah." my fav was "this is the chatroom lah, maisie see??" maisie is my aunt.

she also offered me 700 to go to melb to meet with corporate big wigs. i dont kno if i wanna waste 700, alot of cash!!!

the aussie dollar is dropping, wh's mom lost alot of money with UBS. shes pissed. and shes coming over soon..to stay in the other room. i demolished the 8 durians she packed for wh to bring over when he got back..now it just leaves me hungering for more :( im so uber sad because the stupid fruit is sooooo good that i seriously keep smelling it in the house. AND AND also right, i licked the glad wrap clean man....wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh someone pls buy me more durian.

2008-08-28T19:12:00.003+10:00

read quite a few people's blogs as its holiday week and im stuck at home alone. i must say its not very enriching. despite borrowing 5 novels from the uni library i am only close to finishing one. and yet i fail to summon the words to make this entry vocabulary-sufficient.

i lack stimulating conversation...i am limited to having one conversationalist who is not much of a conversationalist at all.ARGHHHHH. it frustrates me. i got angry yesterday. theres a limit to everything and 4 dota games (each 40mins - 1hr) is not alright! i require the tending of a bonsai, affection of a dog ( have u seen the unruly dogs that start acting up when they are neglected?!) , patience of cooking 5hr simmered soup - when u stand over the stove n watch...

yes. i am demanding.

p.s. wh is going back t singapore this weekend to sort some lawyer stuf..and his mom will be flying back with him on monday...i have to make the house warm, inviting, CLEAN/SPOTLESS, make it seem effortless so that it proves ive not been taking a backseat in the cleanliness car??!?!omg..stress stress..

p.s.s. they are bringing me durian..i hope the customs officer does not throw it in the refusal bin................................MY PRECIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

2008-08-25T15:46:00.002+10:00

i havent blogged for so long..bf's always hogging the computer because we only have one LAN cable, meaning only one computer online at a time. and what else, he just plays dota -_- so janet this is for u!! :)

its the holidays this wk..mambo night was a bit of a failure..at least i sold enough tickets..and sigh..im so so so poor.:( going t look for a job at the local supermarket i think..see how it goes.the hours shld be really relaxed..

ytd i dreamt that wh bought me like a Juicy tote, Victoria S underwear, and lots of couture stuff.hahahah. ok..its not going to happen..

2008-07-18T15:41:00.002+10:00

i havent blogged for awhile, much less come online ever since i decided not to follow wh t sch *guffaws. sleeping in, milling about the house and doing "wu suo shi shi". so fun ^ ^

well anyway today i chose to come because after wh finishes school i need t go buy some pei pa gao for me. every morning i have thick greenish globs of disgustingly fresh phelgm. ew. wh doesnt know where the oriental store is, so i need to go with.

yesterday's dinner, roast duck with wonton mee was pretty ok..but cold and a whopping $12? in singapore dollars its almost like i was eating at Mandarin's chatterbox. i had retrieved the keys to our new place and we went tgt t check it out. i love its parquet floors but the previous tenant makess it smell a little... :( im going to put essence burners all over the house. VANILLA I SAY!

and we still have heaps of errands to run unfortunately, go to Ikea for the 4th time this month, look at beds and miscellanous furniture. but i love it.

2008-07-11T17:59:00.002+10:00

i finally found shelter after heaps of viewings and appointments :( felt disheartened and all.but now im ready to move in thurs next wk, will have wii + wii fit and internet and my own kitchen with quote "gourmet" oven and MY OWN PLACE WITH FURNITURE I PICKED OUT. :) yay.haha.

i just cant wait.till then.

2008-06-22T18:43:00.002+10:00

wahhh this wk has been awesome n memorable.

when i went t pick wh up my heart pumped so heart i thought it would drop out becos i was waiting so impatiently. haha and then when we couldnt stop smiling at each other..

i went shopping with janet as well, bought a dress and a BCBG top for $30.happiest buy :) and then met rachel only once :( stupid woman is so busy..should b seeing her soon..

today i actually stayed at home..hurhur for awhile.wanna go see wh later.funnily i cant really sleep without him.lucky for me yesterday i was so ultra tired i konked out for 11hrs.phew.

my aunt wants me t go with her to harvey norman, get her a MP3 and upload pop songs for her...ogod.so funny..lol.

please meet me soon..have not much time left.

hyped.

2008-06-14T15:00:00.003+10:00

Boy you had a good girl
I wanna give you the world
Even all the stars above
Wanna give you my love, yes all of my love

No matter how hard I try to fight it
There's no any other boy that can deny it
Coming around and out, spinning inside
And it takes all that I got to fight it

-Paula DeAnda; Good Girl

:) approx 3 days and 9hours.hahaha..

MY arrival time is 11pm on monday, but wh comes back on the 17th, a day after me. thats approx 3days 9 hrs. yes i said that already ^ ^

in the afternoon i wanna go do eyebrows, nails! anyone want to come with? rachel? net? let me kno ;) <3

oh oh and i wanna do facial and go for lympahtic draingage massage. i hope 2 weeks are long enuf.

aww they disaled embedding in my blog so this is the link for the wonder girls video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W2Zq04OMWVI&feature=related

Op Shopping

2008-06-12T22:12:00.002+10:00

the multitude of names for Op Shopping (Opportunity Shopping); Thrift Store shopping, 2nd hand goods etc. most 2nd hand stores or Salvation Army stores dont have much good stuf.

TODAY I MADE THE MOST SATIFYING BUYS OF MY LIFE.(JANET U SHLD B JEALOUS)
I went t the neighbourhood Salvo's and got
1. brown pouch bag sling thing - genuine leather $3.75 worn( but makes its soft!)
2. cream mini briefcase style with gold accents on top handle, clasp and sling hook. dont kno if its leather,mayb pleather, - $4.75 near new condition
3. picnic basket, woven rattan, retangular briefcase shape - comes with cups, plates and cutlery - $3.14 cant tell its age, but a few sticks of rattan stick out.
4. plain leather belt - $2.75 good condition.

i spent $14.60 for ALL of that. totally awesome. i am a convert. its very nice vintage but at the same time, none of that ridiculous pricing many singaporean shops have.

then i went t the shopping mall, got eyeliner, shirt dress, scarf. all on mid-season sale prices. omgggg...so totally awesome...spent so little and got so much.

i still cant bring myself to buy 2nd hand clothes tho..sticking t my accessories. alma, my hsemate is really experience with this tho, haha she patiently sifted through racks of clothing and then picked out 3 jackets, gloves and a belt. all for $38. and one of the jackets was true vintage, shoulder pads and all, and pure silk. haha i kinda remembered my mom wearing that stuf.

p.s. janet, i saw lepord print, skulls and rose, polka dota gumboots. i wasnt sure of ur foot size and all..sorry..

when ur aunt's around.

2008-06-11T21:21:00.004+10:00

the past tense of 'stick' is 'stuck' not 'stucked'.

im an old maid in bed i kno, really dogone tired. i think my 'auntie' is on her way. just hope i dont need t feel unconfortable throughout my exam, that would really suck. going to the labs to study later. had a late night yesterday. i try really hard..but somehow the information doesnt really stick.

oh and i confessed to my step dad that his new client introduced by yours truly, is my bf's mom. so...i hope and wish and pray that he will not let my mom t b privy to this news. >_< dunno how to tell my mom. but apparently the house that she wants t rent is is worth 10k a month. thats kinda alot...for doing nothing.

love!

small note.

2008-06-09T03:22:00.003+10:00

by the way, if you have the time, click on my profile page.the new video is really cool.haha well i mean, im in love with this new korean girl group called 'Wonder Girls' they're really cute. the vid also has an english translation for you.

p.s my friend said they're gay for saying they're so hot. but i think thats culture for you, Koreans are known for this 'disease' called 'princess/prince disease' aka kongchu/wangja byung. they think they're royalty and act so; spoilt etc. of course im not saying all of them act like that.i mean its a phenomon enough to coin a term for it. plus, they MAY be pretending to be like that? lol.i have no clue. but i still love the song!!

looking behind

2008-06-08T21:06:00.002+10:00

ive just viewed photos from secondary school days that Christian Wong put up. its pretty damn amazing.

i wouldnt say im embarrassed of my alma mater. ive always been proud knowing that its been at most points of time, at the forefront of education, i think remaining in the top 40s(?) schools, despite being classified as a neighbourhood school. however, especially being in australia, most of my friends come from IJs or MGS ecetra,and the boys from those male only institutions, ive never felt that comfortable admitting im from Commonwealth, especially when they dont kno where-tf it is.

i saw the pictures and so much changed. i now see that most of my class mates have progressed and flourished. its nice to see how we dont lose the fight, that we do stand well on our own. i really am proud to be from commonwealth.

apart from the fact i wish christina didnt put up those fugly pictures of me...in sec 3.ew.haha...

leading the sedentry life

2008-06-07T23:10:00.002+10:00

exams soon.whoo.im just trying to focus on the positive, being back in singapore!YAY! ^ ^ got so many things i wanna do, including major shopping.

i will try to goad my mom into buying me a LCD screen TV for the new apartment im renting in australia and/or a new laptop. but it will be or..because the laptop costs 3k *blush.i kno, very expensive. thats like nearly 3 months of rent..shizz.ive doubled my rent by moving out.not including all the extras like food and utilities i feel terrible.but..its at the cost of my relationship.if it ends...i will be like a bull in a china shop!

mundane things i must take note of that i need to buy,

moisturiser from nivea(they dont have the whitening one here; everyone wants to be tan)
3 pairs of shoes at least!!i always trash mine in the clubs here.. :( makes me really sad!
clothessssss!!!!!
school books for next semester.cheap!

happy with just that, can u imagine?lol ;) wish me luck for my exams..i'll need it.

make hay while the sun still shines

2008-06-02T19:43:00.004+10:00

i guess its become bitterly apparent im morose personified. we kissed and made up (of course only figuratively) and the outlook appears bighter. but i still believe; im still waiting for a dark cloud to appear on the horizon again. so tiring...

trying to study for my accounting exam but i just not in the mood.and from my fill of ciggies on friday, sat and sunday..my throat is a goner. despite all the supplements i bought, eating fresh fruit and veggies, i tend to get sick often. why? >_< bloody annoying.

i dont kno what to cook..let me list the oddities in my frigde.
1. tub of unopened greek pot-set yougurt.
2. an avacado
3. tub of butter (made with canola oil, __% less fat!)
4. half a butternut pumpkin
5. few cloves of garlic
6. cranberry juice
7. cheese singles
8. rotting salad and week old slimy roasted chicken (YES, EWWWWW)
9. an orange (did u kno i have eaten around 4kgs of oranges; navel & mandarins over the past 2wks? i sweearr to god i got a orange glow about me)

in the freezer, not so healthy.
1. ready made jiao zi/dumplings (korean)
2. 2 boxes microwavable lagsana
3. TUB OF DOUBLE CHOCO BUTTERMILK ice cream (half eaten of course ^ ^)
4. frozen brown sliced bread, flavoured twists, crossoints
5. half a package of beer battered seasoned wedges
6. battered fish fillets
7. honey soy marinated chicken on sticks

so...basically nothing i can eat without putting effort into it >_<
p.s. lunch was korean ramyun with an egg and 3 dumplings.im sooo sick of proccessed.but at the same time, soooo wary of eating out. did u kno the bloody chinese down the road gave me diahorrea, i had their curry chicken rice. i bet they froze it for extra long or sth.

2008-06-01T18:20:00.004+10:00

why did the lettuce blush?

because it saw the salad dressing.

how did the man in the desert survive?

because of the sand which(sandwhich) was there.

to all the people who feel as shitty as i do, this is for u.

i want t get myself into a drunken stupor.i cant use the word again.because, i lucidly recalled how hes being a really meanie the whooolllleeee time i was trying to get drunk and wallow in sorrow.yesterday going out with ella and sabina was pretty fun, music at metro freo was really pumping, trance-house and R&B really good mix.but i had sore ankles(still do) by the end of the night..arms are sore from flailing wildly and dancing.

he hasnt spoken to me for 2days because i went out yesterday.he said i promised i wouldnt.but yesterday's outing was planned way before i promised.and i forgot about this prior appointment.and its really not fair.because he throws a tantrum when i dont let him out.but yet when i break a promise its all "U ARE IN THE WRONG".i dont think hes very compromising.how is it that im meant to be begging for forgivness.this is totally bullshit.

p.s.if this is truly ur sullen self most of the time, then i dont think you should be coming to perth.

misunderstandings

2008-05-22T22:16:00.003+10:00

haahhaahah today pat brightened my day!i lurrrveee u patt...she played wahjong the whole day with me.and then we had a little misunderstanding.
i was telling her abt wh getting back home from his camp.
"he came back in his friend's lorry"
"he brought his friend's to lawry's"
AHAHAHHAAHHAHA i had a good laugh for what could have been easily 10mins of pure joy, the reality couldnt have been further from the truth.
some group quotes;
"oh ya the swensen's ice cream, earthquake?"
"no, volcano!"
"aiyah its some kind of natural disaster"

:) awaiting his return from camp after my disasterous day which escalated by my tutor giving my group a dressing down for a very very poor presentation. i refuse to be responsible for other people's lack of dilligence. they were the ones who didnt want to have group meetings.even better, one just didnt show up, the group assignment papers were also of very poor quality and we are likely to scrape through with a pass IF we do well in the exam.and i also forgot my USB which had all my notes and the night before, i forgot to save the slides i had been doing all night.and i also had to attend korean class unprepared.which i really hate.and wh didnt call me or msg when he said he would.

pretty much worst day ever.

a looong weekend

2008-05-20T01:33:00.003+10:00

its been a loong wkend for me!

finally got my assignment done, marketing 100. i actually didnt have the good fortune to contribute much to the assignment, because my team mates split it so that i was only to put their parts tgt, write executive summary etc etc. but funnily enuf i didnt even do that because the MOFO that didnt sent his part in, i told him to fuck off and die and do all that himself since he couldnt be half arsed to send me his portion.so. i dont think anyone knows that i didnt have to do any work.haha. i dont know if i should laugh or cry.

i chose 2 types of groups for my Commerce units this semester. one group asian and the other white. the asian group was a mix of hardworking and completely useless because of lack of prowess in English and the white group was just fucking lazy. SO. it got handed in before deadlines and thats all i care about. i hope to never see them again.

as u can see, assignments have me at the top of my game!-_- i shall rejoice now that i am level 10 going to be level 11, hopefully by tonight in Viwawa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wahjong is awesome.

safety

2008-05-15T20:46:00.003+10:00

i found out that my aunt who lives with me, as some of you will know as Auntie Maisie, has been diagnosed with cancer.tommorow will be when she goes for a biopsy. im not very clear on details.mom doesnt explain very well...

i thought of jac telling me about how she gets a little claustrophobic and i actually get agoraphobic.i dont like wide spaces. sure enough, i thought of this when i went to the library's 5th floor loo and i chose the squeezy, door-opens-in-your-face type stall rather than the large handicapped one. (there were only 2 stalls)thats when i thought of this entry incidentally.hahaha. but anyway,my interpretation is that i dont like the unknown. i dont like thinking there may be something lurking in a corner waiting to kidnap/take/eat/hurt me.i dont like that it is so empty and i am alone, vunerable. i dont like that i cannot feel 2 walls at any one time by stretching out both arms. i prefer things small, enclosed, tight, it may even be uncomfortable, but i'll know that theres nothing in that space that i have to worry about. i know i am safe.

2008-05-11T03:36:00.002+10:00

Yikes. i thought that by excluding myself from clubbing at Metro's tonight i'll be doing something worthwhile.but im just not feeling it..feeling bad bad feelings.PROCRASINATION is only the tip of the iceberg.to say the least, i do have 3 assignments due..

i thought i was well over clubbing and enjoyed being a homebody.but looking at old photos on my own and other people's profiles.i really really miss it.plus all my friends, housemates, etc are out. EVEN the resident noise/trouble maker directly above my room that disturbs my sleep is out..jeez. :( not forgetting my bf..who has double standards.when i used to not be able to go out at night just t jac's place or club ( tho i still did it sometimes ^ ^) now he says it like he should b free to go.really really ridiculous.so im sitting here at 1.40 in the morning, breaking my very effective waking cycle at 7am..partially fuming at the ears and foaming in the mouth from his audacity.and then feeling contrite because i did it too..sigh.and i shouldnt take his stance, which is to attune my mood to MY SCHEDULE.just cos im free, im not going to restrict him.take a leaf from my book ok?hmfph.

well..this is dawn, going back to her perpetual waiting spot on her bed..

midnight tnight.

2008-05-05T06:46:00.002+10:00

wh comes back tnight at midnight :)or mayb tmr at midnight :( i kinda forgot which one..he said the 6th so not so sure.

hmrm.anyway, i think anticipating his return,my body automatically conjured a nightmare situation!!while i slept, i dreamt that wh didnt want me anymore :( not sex, not going out, he just wasnt interested.period.wah lao.damn sad sia.and plus my mom all lived in the same house.she asked me t ask him t go watch the Olymics beach volleyball and he just gave me a look that said no.i think this kind of situation is the most dire!!!

anyhoo.my body is pretty fucked up.ive been staying up 24hrs and then sleeping for 14+ and repeating it.its a weird situation..i dont think im getting more work done though :( later today im hoping t study PROPERLY.wish me luck!

2008-04-30T07:20:00.003+10:00

today i woke up my idea! haha..i showed 2 MOHH(Ministry of Health Holdings) employees,and the Chief Dietitian from Alexandra Hospital. It was like a recruitment drive for long term job opportunities.basically singapore's health industry, public health services are going through a revamp from cluster modules to _____. (i forgot) well, anyway, the gist of it is that its a change to enable seamless transition from primary to tertiary to Quaternary care.so that chronic cases can be referred to SGH or NUH where the schools of medicine, Duke and Young Lin are affiliated to, and tertiary care can be given in the same hospital as primary.the shift in direction to upgrade our health care system requires alot more professionals in the industry..

to seek out appropriate officials that the MOHH people could talk to, i brought them around the campus after their talk.it was mind boggling how intricate and complex things behind the scene are.i mean, they even had talks on how to re-integrate a previous program Nanyang Poly had with Curtin for physio therapists to attain the qualifications since the poly's diploma didnt make you a certified physio- what modules need to be included, if the standard can be reached, how the problem of too few clinical placements place could be solved..a program to boost numbers to increase the amount of professionals in singapore. and the talk about supplying enough people to the Youth Olympics and the new Alexandra Hospital(Khoo Teck Puat) in 2010.

so complex right?omg.this is crazy shit.

well, other than realising that alot of work goes behind the scenes, ive changed my mindset alittle.people USED to say uni was all about networking.i never saw it happening.but when i met these MOHH people, they told me they kno the banking people, no problemo.hahaha.obviously it'll be more likely that i'd draw up financial plans for MOHH, the motherfucking big conglomerate and have that iconic civil servant's silver bowl, which would be an easier post to obtain,but..meet people, try to get out there.its not about the grades anymore.

mortal insanity

2008-04-29T03:31:00.004+10:00

"i wish i had a make-wand", thats what i said today. becos i find it trying to upkeep a certain degree of respectability to the outside world that does NOT say "i just crawled out from under my sheets. then i thought, hey if i need t look good everyday i might as well just look good without make up. plastic surgery or PS from here on in, has always been an option for me plainly becos i wanna look better. i've seen throngs circulate hate mail and other petty 'rocks' hurled at people like dawn yeo becos she did PS. but im thinking, hey if she looks better, whats the problem? anyway, mom supports me.muahaha. but wh doesnt. he says he loves me for who i am yada yada yada and i shouldnt change, becos that means im changing for someone else.so the only way i'll ever get t have it done is like break up.p.s. i think i coerced him into letting do one section.hah.

and also, ive always wanted t do it in korea!cos they have heaps of PS crazy people :) and today!!!i got 2 emails. one from 'Study the World' - Student Exchange divison that is trying to encourage people to study overseas.nothing is paid for but school fees will be the same amount that you already pay to uni. that will b a true reflection of the country..so the 2nd email was somewhat less desirable 'Teach English in Korea'- a South Korean government initiative that encourages native English speakers to go teach in rural areas in Korea, with round trip airfare, 1,500USD allowance, 3hrs/day, 5days/wk, accomodation all fully paid for.totally awesome right, then i can save all this USD and do PS!!WAH LAO awesome sia...sighhhhhh

pat left today, met pat for only 10weeks and spent almost every single day with her, i'd say thats an obscene amount of time.hur.but it was awesome, now shes back in sg till she flies to London on jun and will be there for about 2 years? the rest of us were thinking of going to Ibiza with her..if we save enough that is, next January :) i'll b " giggidty giggidty giggidty!" gave her a grand farewell, partied at a MOS hosted party at Capitol on Friday, partied hard at Metro City Saturday and today before the airport we had a steak dinner which i only ate half of becos it was soooo filling :) but nevertheless yum yum yum in my tum tum!got kinda weepy at the airport.we gave her a card and she gave each of us a card as well, was surprised and really touched.the photo sits beside the one of me n wh :) then she flewwwwww..sigh i will only see her in Sept later in the year..i await ur return!!!!

hes still out-fielding :( imu baby!

weirdest dream

2008-04-16T16:30:00.002+10:00

omg.have t blog.haha funniest shit.i have been webcaming while sleeping, waiting for baby t wake up.so fr the umpteenth time that i checked whether he was awake (n he wasnt) i went back t sleep.

i was w janet and other school people. we were walking along this amazing beach with low tide and a really long way out, u kno how those good beaches have like a long wade out t sea, its very shallow for the first 20-30m?

so anyway, the beach is populated. i see an old flame looking at my amazing skinny body and im linking hands w janet, not having sunblock on, n complaining "omg, im so gonna get a bad tan". then we pass a group of commonwealth badminton player (??)all in pe t-shirts and their long pants. Sean Chua is head of the group and is winding up 2 blue triangular vinyl flags. Mr Soto, my primary sch ultimate favourite-st teacher, is giving them a debrief. we grab the vinyl flags and i smile n yell n wink "bye Mr Soto". Janet and I have spotted more exciting characters, we see Navy men wading around out in the low tide, 10-20m out. AND in uniform. quickly, we wave the flags. Sean Chua screams "Dont, its Singapore waters, the Navy will fire" So we rapidly chuck the flags on to the floor and give the Navy men, who are already poised t shoot, a mock salute. I squeal t janet, OMG fucking hot, officers in uniform wet!LOL. we dive over half swimming half walking becos its shallow but we cannot contain our excitement.then, we almost knock into a lady carrying her youngin , who for some reason, moved into our path!!grr.we apologize anyway and try t get to the men in uniform.,.warious girls already sit on them, but i kno i can garner their attention instead..then i wake up..LOL...

time is on a loop

2008-04-07T14:47:00.002+10:00

guess what, its repeating itself again..im in a condrum all over again..ARGH.

he got pissy w me for having no battery on my phone and then coming hme late.not like i knew he msged anyways.n out of the 12 he supposedly bombed my phone with worry, i saw only one when i charged it.dont think hes lying but still..freaking sucks shit la.

i went t freo/freemantle ytd which was why i was out for so long.had a seafood platter which had calamari rings, lightly seasoned w chili seeds squid pieces, fries, chili mussels aka mussels la-la style, grilled baramundi, oysters baked with bits of bacon and salad to top of the entirety. WAH LAO. lagi best. hahaha.

also bought a cute dress/long top with ghouls screaming and ghoul-ing(their mouths are O shaped).only $30 on sale ^ ^ muahaha.

so..he called me ytd becos i flat outright refused t sleep..i said i couldnt.and then..now that i dont need t sleep..hes not talking t me.at all.!@#$%^&#

best friends

2008-03-30T20:43:00.002+11:00

its all over.

in a good sense!hahaha, thanks to my best friend.im not saying everyone should only have one, im stating why one best friend is enough.
1. too many = losing touch.
2. many people have problems dividing their time amongst 2 or more best friends.
3. some actually rank best friends against best friends.
4. group divisions between the best friends.
5. my best friend is the best one in the whole wide world.

:) so anyway.i havent been doing much, the past week was a leisurely time of lazing at home, not showering till i felt like it after i woke up at 3pm and decided t get clean at 7pm.friday night was a really successful party organised by me and other committees!awesomeness.on such a large scale too.we had about 1300 party go-ers at the venue.i was the door bitch of the night which was so much fun.some didnt like the line up that well-including me.since the first half of the night were some freestyle rappers and the crowd included a couple of oldies who came down t support their children who danced for us.one mom actually dressed up in to the theme "bling back the retro" and she looked really retro but also totally MILF.i was like "WTF" hahaha..met some great people and left the door number-clicker to some subordiates,danced away at the dance floor.SIA college students i sold tickets too bought me quite a few drinks, i paid for none myself and my heart felt like it was gnna blow up from the over-extertion at one point.amazing!i cant wait t organize next year! :)

2008-03-25T09:39:00.000+11:00

fresh hot tears
i awake
i can see
it is a lost cause

so very tired.

2008-03-24T06:10:00.002+11:00

eventful yesterday; i sang karaoke, played mahjong (won $50 ^ ^) and tried t shop which didnt happen(but still a thumbs-up day) and a rare GOOD lunch..nowadays i eat what i can find..so i only stock fresh foods instead of processed.

today i watched soccer, 2 consecutive matches.a first!EPL..Man U Vs Liverpool was an expected outcome, Man U 3-0.but they played a really good game! Chelsea had stepped up their game and won through a true show of skill, they kept pushing forward and final score 2-1..

tho soccer and pre-mahjong sesh, i neglected the bf..feel terrible and v guilty cos hes sick.the poor thing, and his mom is away on cruise again, so hes alone..feel so contrite and contemptible; really!such a sucky gf.

whoo

2008-03-20T02:24:00.003+11:00

its been awhile.its different feeling like im going incognito...quite tie-less.

its only b a month so far and things have been very different from last semester. :) just taking things as they go. shopped marginally, bought 2 sets of bikinis on sale, roxy n billabong.but its totally different from the styles which u get in sg, roxy one has pineapples and palm trees on white base lined with cherry and white stripes!the other is black with multi colored stripes.damn happy.and the colors ensure my i dont have nipple exposure, haha; despite not having inbuilt padding. err, some other micellanious stuff too..

hurrr..i went t a rare rave party - Future Music Festival.totally awesome.the chemical brothers played and i really like that kind of music nowadays. ^ ^ electo-house.

aly's got this new place near school and the mall.400/wk and 3 bedrooms.in bloody nice condition with great furnishing.i let loose t mom that i wanna move out but like she so knew where the convo was heading, said i cannot move in with wh,it means its serious and like "dangerous" for me plus sg is small etc.gossip blah blah.so anyway, i really dont kno how it'll work t move in tgt.plus petty quarrels abt who does the dishes or vaccums the floor?*shrug*

its gonna b "play it by ear" time

V Day

2008-02-18T01:59:00.004+11:00

this marks the 100th post, a good milestone in all things positive? :)

a general discription of my ongoings are not unusual, eat, love and shop.i packed my bags this afternoon and i have had t hyper-extend the large suitcase and use the additional one i brought just in case; by which i mean i planned t have more than the large suitcase full and require the 2nd.the 3rd as usual, is filled w my shoes, i got a total of 4 new additions ^ ^

ahh, havent posted in a long time.bumped into alison last wk on the 14th, at CCK while waiting for wh t book out.chatted,caught up..

sorry janet, i kno its late, but happy belated ^ ^ i wish God's blessings t tumble down all over you left right and centre!please keep hammy safe!ilu!p.s. hammy is a fatty so feed him extra, or he might starve...:(

V day itself was non-descript, he managed t get nights off so i brought along the tiramisu(his fav) that i laboured over for over 5hrs? decorated prettily w chocolate curls and coco powder, heart stickers all over the box and red ribbon.a heart felt letter w really cute cartoon about a land far far away included the prince(him), the maiden(me) and the wicked witch(ex-gf). nicky was a good sport and walked half of orchard, the other half i conquered with my cousin the day before.settled on a belt at DKNY,Palais Renaissance.i recieved nothing,and was a lil disappointed.

the next day, i eagerly waited for him t book out..the hours passed and i ended up having dinner with my cousin after attempt t partition my new 500GB external disk drive..we were at bugis and he finally arrived w friend in tow late night, empty handed. :( super saddening..i took comfort in simple feelings, love conquers all!!when we finally dropped into bed, he went t get water and presented me w 20 red-pink roses, a bouquet he arranged and did himself.

there was part 2 the next morning w the red "xiang si" dou in a bottle and cute cojoined hearts and a poor(but adorable) attempt t stick on glitter.LOL.the letter i felt; was better than mine!
he finally got his act tgt, doing it all infront of me becos he was too busy and i spend most waking hours tgt.and i mini helped lol.like stick scotch tape cos i wanted him t hurry.we ended up gg t sentosa pretty late and i was disappointed.we didnt get t stick our feet into the Doctor Fish Spa at Underwater world and say hello t sharkies or ugly lil fishies.:( we walked t the nearby Luge&Skyride.bought the combo.i kicked his ass becos i made him wait for me then overtook and hogged the lane.it was crazy fun!the skyride was scary, our legs were free-falling..and he was overly paranoid abt me dropping his new camera -_- there was a cool flower display that i initally thot was silly but after seeing that everything else had closed, we took piccies!

so, all in all, i had a good post Vday-baby ilu!

DOTA

2008-01-31T21:16:00.000+11:00

not having a very good few days.made the best friend angry,parents coming down hard on me etc..i havent been seeing enough of some as well.and i cant bake :(

i just play dota...

p.s. when i went t jurong point, an ah lian told her maid,"oh...this drink is green lemon.." -_- lime la dumb dumb..

2008-01-24T03:09:00.001+11:00

i have begun to throw all caution to the wind as the date of my departure is imminent.i eat every few hours.and very good gastronomic experiences too.hah the other day i went t Sam's t play w his 3 dogs!!damn cute..and i carried one so much that she didnt like being held anymore by me :( v upsetting..aft tt we went t eat at all the famous foods in the area, arnd mustafa/lavander area.yong tau fu, BBQ wings, tau huay, orh luak. hahahah :) n wh always lets me choose so i always get t eat at newton and Boon Tong Kee- my fav!and rochor beancurd..hopefully my skin will soon b smooth and fair.lol.but i think it will also be plushy..the rate i eat... -_- today i went w auntie maisie and got durians,again ^ ^ lol.

late-night-dota and mahjong and eating whenever..i'm having an awesome time not working.the thot of perth where supper is impossible and its quiet everywhere after 5..i wanna cry!!!TT_TTsigh..<>

wh and i got rings.i kinda didnt wanna wait so...i got a celestial diamond ring! :) they gave me my personal stargazer thingy which magnifies ur diamond so u can see the 75 faceted cut!im just happy, grossly put, that i have sth that says i belong t him. bought quite a few pieces of clothing recently.my fav buy was a CK top in navy silk that has a long v-back.was 50% discounted from $399!! :)) also got a Victor&Rolf grey woollen dress-very nice cut and detailing. and another nameless one, tops here and there(cheap!) ahh..joys of shopping :)

im super fearful of wh's mom these days..i dont think shes very happy w me.sigh.>_< summopre i told wh i wont stay over unless his mom goes on a cruise so he told her!!and makes it seem like i dont want her arnd right!!and plus the past wkend we didnt "pei" her arnd the house alot either, late nights out w the car and no massages..she got his credit card bill too..it nearly amounted t 4k this month, my ring, some of his fees, his clothes and his shoes; things that really have scant t do w me.but she cant really read the bill,its in english.n shes gg cruising again this wkend so i cant show myself t b an exemplary gf..as they say in dota, "GG AH~!" ( Gone Game)

My 20th birthday

2008-01-11T20:25:00.000+11:00

whoa, its the big two-oh.my age now has a 2 infront of it.thats weird. :) i think i'll still b very familiar with identifying myself as 19 at least for a few months lol.

thank u everyone who msged me happy birthday!i didnt reply cos 1. i have no more $ in my pre-paid :( and 2. im booking tables so i want t confirm the place before inviting all of u down to a small bash at Zouk!drinks will b on me :)

i met up w simon,who came down from aust for a short holiday and the rest of the clique in aussie(who are singaporeans).we played dota,lol our obsession that takes over our studying.then i went for bday dinner at The Line at Shangri-la.My GOD LA.was totally awesome buffet.they had an open concept where u saw chefs prepare the food behind counters, some segmented-off with glass.and chefs really interacted with the many gluttons!haha.it was so fun :) when i didnt take any prawns the chef actually asked me why not and then upon finding out i was lazy said he'd peel them for me!!!hahaha.but yeah the fresh lobster,oyster,sashimi(yellowtail,swordfish,salmon,tuna,octopus etc), crayfish,scallops (sitting pretty on the shell) and heaps of other fresh seafood that i myself couldnt identify since some were a little rare?lol felt slightly swa-ku.so u get the idea, vast vast array.and then super nice dishes, one of my fav was the sauteed cod fish in teriyaki sauce!the Italian pasta dishes were really tasty and a good change from the usual cheap asian cusine other hotels like to proffer after the cold dishes.oh the salad bar was quite well done as well.i didnt have space t try the noodle "stall" or much of the abovementioned indian cusine.cooked to order, there was ol'ime favs like duck noodles and what not.the center of attention, in the center of the snazzy restaurant; in hues of orange,white and dashes of blue to represent a liner ship, waitpersons were dressed in sailor uniforms complete with a poofy hat, was the dessert section.copious amounts of small glasses lined the shelves.so many mousses and berry cakes or little jelly thinga-ma-jigs and proper slices of cakes,meringues, a CREPE station!!!!!chocolate truffles and also A ICE CREAM station, cold rock cafe style.toppings mashed into your ice cream. :) chocolate fondue table!very tall fondue fountain...i dropped my first strawberry into its depths.lol.the 2nd attempt was better.choose from strawberries soaked in syrup,made them juicy and sweet or shortbread biscuits on sticks.the fountain flowed with warm slightly bitter chocolate.and then they had small boxes placed on tables!it was for you to take and fill with the teeming drawers of gummies, marshmellows, nuts, chocolates, sour sweets etc!like being in a candy store.i wanna go again and again and again and again.lol.

<33

topping the icing on the cake,the sweet cherry!!my bad luck all washed away, i won verily in mahjong!wahahaha.an impromptu session at rach's neighbour's place.i man tai TWICE ok.lol.best time ever...

becos in contrast,a few days ago, wh asked me not t play.i got visited by my "auntie" and i attended a wake.i didnt listen,so as not t pangseh the 4th leg for my mahjong kakis and i thot shouldnt be too superstitious.so i lost $12!!!!no one else lost more than a dollar,otherwise they won obviously.super sadded..

then out of the goodness of my heart ^ ^ since i promised wh's mom t help her change SGD into RM i went despite having not slept since the mahjong session of 2rounds which took like 7hrs.then it turned out that she wanted t go t malaysia hence the RM.so i got to go with her!was damn fun la :) i cant remember honestly,seeing malaysia and having no recollection!it was like my first time.lol.we got our hair done,permed and trimed.hers looked damn nice,mine not as much :( sigh i might get lionel t fix it.oh well!it was free hehe.but i plan t treat her t dinner or sth, except shes going on another cruise! lol...

mundane

2008-01-08T02:26:00.000+11:00

well, my mundane life as per usual.haha 'cept wh's mom showed me her bank account book today.wooo... :X at first i didnt think much of it, but then i was like "EH!HER ACCOUNT LEH!"then quietly,while she was ranting on about the credit card co., i asked wh if shes actually so free with the degree of privacy.wh said he had to "qiang" from her to see when he was younger!lol.i guess she really likes me ^ ^

the past three days have been more productive than usual. i helped her get the karaoke machine fixed.since she moved from the house on emerald hill she said its been defunct.so i made wh take us to the shop t check the machine and the mikes.actually it was the wires so he did some adjustments and TA-DA!haha she sang so much she was actually late cooking dinner.hello,she doesnt do anything all day?lol.so yeah i guess the machine actually made a positive impact on her life.hurhur.then as usual, i massaged her and helped out around the house.and "pei"-ed her quite alil until wh got annoyed w me! :) and wh kept laughing!i had t address myself as her daughter-in-law to gain some credibility with the credit card person whilst complaining since they deducted the $ from her account twice. OH!and she actually said, "ni men jie huen hou,..."

3rd post and counting..

2008-01-03T10:23:00.000+11:00

oh god.its 7.30am, still dota-ing and going for yoga at 9am.ive finally lost some steam and the brain isnt at full function = less thinking about random things that keep me awake.plus wh is outfield-ing!which means he is uncontactable.i cannot whine, i cannot manja and tell him i miss him.haha thats super mushy..i can nod off now though, miss yoga, lose track of the determination t lose some weight before my bday pictures will look worse than they alr aim to be, and also be very sorry about missing my appointment with janet.thus, I MAKE MY STAND!i cannot go t bed....zzzzz

omg,can feel the inert snoring starting that only happens when i get v tired!lol.*blush.GROWL.tummy hurts too. :(( i have *cough watery stools leh!haiyo.no energy t even go toileting.......

sorry la, very gross.let me try t inspire a good post.

haha!i always do this on purpose.i will just go yeah :) fun leh!lol ok im just a little boring?err...i dont see how this will inspire innovative writing.

ok..its quite futile.so erm....i need more money haha!i just typed moreny!which is more+money!!yay!!i coined a new word!-_- kk play one more game of dota then i need t go yoga!!!!

2nd post of the day, i really am bored.

2008-01-03T00:55:00.000+11:00

Your Score: The Lady

You scored 28% Cardinal, 46% Monk, 85% Lady, and 24% Knight!

You scored 28% Cardinal, 46% Monk, 85% Lady, and 24% Knight!
Chaste and pure, you are a good person. You try to help others and do your duty to your family. However, this duty involves you being sold off to a local noble house in order to cement relations between your families. But you know it's for a greater good, and besides you will retain all the comforts and glamour of your position regardless of if you're your father's or you husband's property.

bored out of my mind

2008-01-02T23:07:00.000+11:00

a past time to revive; singing!haha like the singing novices in the shower kind la ok?really very bored.bestie working, and bf in camp.others are sick or unavaliable.check out the oldie a friend played for me and had me thinking!i put it on my profile page.its hokkien.my mom's reaction "??????"haha she said "WHY HOKKIEN?so vulgar.sing korean or mandarin la, brush up."but this is nice.u gotta read the lyrics tho.i cannot understand anything without the lyrics and singing is futile!i cannot speak hokkien!

so anyway, trying to improve my dota skills but im only sullying my game name cos i always die!!eeps!hahawas thinking of spending time shopping but really no $$ left alr!!sigh..then everyone thinks i got ATM for a bf,but i buy my own stuff hor!! >_<

many people are making resolutions.aiya, im so hopelessly into believing in myself, my laziness so i will not make one, i will instead make a wish.lol.i wish that i will get more Distinctions for next sem at Uni.i will TRY t make it work.no resolution, no promise. haha.im so hopeless right!!oh and i got 3 Credit 1 Dist this sem.not as good as last sem >_<

HAPPY '08!!

2008-01-02T00:04:00.000+11:00

happy new year!the new year seemed alot less festive compared t xmas.i think it was to do with the presents.hahaha.but thats not the right spirit..

yesterday i took wh to meet ching and the gang again, roy, ty, cheak&half, glenn&ruoning.it was quite fun playing "i have never" but alot of embarrasing Qs came up.obviously sex related.lol.and me and qiao ling ended up clinking glasses more than a few times.hurhur.very fun la, i miss ching alot!i wish i stayed for longer..

the other day was wh's sui-until-cannot-sui day.Murphy's Law!tire got punctured, TP sent a letter for speeding n $150 fine, because of the tire, wheel got changed at mechanic's and mom saw scratched front bumper.wahhh she super mad.summore she said the Dior pouch we got her she didnt like, the mouth of the clasp was too small to use.so she got angry about that too.i got v intimidated and scared.felt like she was scolding me too.then i got hyper stressed until i got a slight fever.retreated t the room and felt uber :( she ended up giving me panadol and feeling sorry :X and gave me 2 hair clips cos i gave her one.haha.so ya..went swimming after a long sleep.and then he had t go t camp very early at 7 today!

argh im so bored!

p.s. i bought a Victor&Rolf dress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!its uber nice.grey wool.for aussie (: and another plaid one with cute collar.and then a pair of cheap flatties with some gold links in the front and a pair of chunky heels in red coarse linen from Pazzion!even wh went on a lil spree with a pair of sneakers from BeetleBug and 2 berms from BritishIndia.. :)

2007-12-26T12:46:00.000+11:00

super sadded!! we went t look at the rings on the 22rd and they were $3910 each.so its way off budget and we're not getting them.. :(

went last min xmas shopping becos xmas is about giving!!so i bought wh and my aunt maisie each a Burberry polo, mom and grannie SKII products, auntie joann a Dior key pouch and wh's mom a Dior lambskin coin purse.so...i spent quite a bit of cash.all of them shld thank Cartier, since i was feeling generous because of the extra ka-ching.

large fanfare during the extended family dinner today, uncle bought roasts and cold meats that were huge and log cake and aunts made different salads and quiche :) awesome y'all!

merry xmas everyone!!<33333

this christmas, i give u my heart..

2007-12-21T03:24:00.000+11:00

i didnt wanna get a silly xmas gift and j'dore-d the idea of getting couple rings.he sweetly smiled and said he was gonna get me one anyway!haha.awesome.so now we're getting rings for xmas.he'll buy mine and i his.

tiffany&co. had a poor selection except for the bling-bling and the native produce didnt catch my eye.so we're gonna get the Cartier Love Collection rings. :) mines gonna have a diamond!!hahahahahaha super happy. this is the Collection, but the bracelet being plastered on billboards.best thing is, part of the procceeds will go to various charities around the world.hur.i guess thats why it costs 2k++ for one.he promised t get the bracelet for me soon lol :)))))

this is the tiffany's bracelet in my last post.

rachel went holidaying.she called me this morning!!:) ilu!

and i miss u janet yang!!i still have ur stockings..

give and take

2007-12-13T21:30:00.000+11:00

these few days have been uneventful.'cept the boyfriend has alot of off days, and i end up spending alot of time with him, resulting in more than frequent petty quarrels.sigh.

on monday i picked up my Tiffany's necklace and bought one of the new charm bracelets :) its heart clasp connects the chain.wh says its too thick but I LIKE.hmph.

ive realised one thing thats embarrassingly romanticist about me; i will not consider romance if his parents even show me a silver of dislike.in the first place, i already get very flustered when anyone (elders' usually) have a bone to pick with me.so yeah..haha very idealistic..

yesterday i finally got to see ching!!first she had exams then she went overseas.so we went t Zouk.yes, i was all about never going on wed's ever since last week, but hello, CHING called me :)) haha.so yeah super crowded, lost my new pack :( then ching's friend was so nice he said lets go buy another one for u.and he bought me one. :) danced alot, saw sheik heikel.royroy was there too :) hes gotten pretty good at dancing. saw baoyue and jovial<< i think thats what her name is, jac's friend.both girls came with their own entourage and i ended up letting about 9people cut queue.:X it was so long that it started trailing into the hotel carpark can?!?wah sian.then i was alone sumore, ching was alr inside.and so this manila guy infront of me began chatting me up.i thot he was harmless, and i didnt know how t refuse his"what's ur digits?" so i gave him my no.and now the bf's pissed.sigh.

what shld i get him for xmas??:)

in 2 minds

2007-12-06T21:14:00.000+11:00

i have an inexplicable smile on my face. :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) one thats super wide.it feels like i have a windfall and lady luck is sitting on my lap mind u, really close to me.several good things have happened to me but i am awaiting the time when all good things come to an end...

wh was really swt, he bought me a suprise present.on of those Dior packages that came w a make-up bag, perfume(CD Addict 2) and body lotion to enhance the edu parfum. :)

rained so hard ytd that i met kent for a while only, nth t do so we watched "The Golden Compass" was a good movie!but the ending is so....sigh obviously need a money making squel lohhh.that bad bad sinking feeling came round when the lights turned on.he was nice enough t wait for me cos i wanted t wear something nicer and change my heels and put back the umbrella(by this time the rain had eased)mummy said cannot go out w such a low cut dress and gave me $ t take cab :) hehe.and also i actually told her "Im gg clubbing" shes super lac alr.i know she thinks ive grown and not so childish!!!YAYYYY!

went t Zouk.i missed rach a whole heap but had a minute nagging sensation.i regretted asking suzy along.me and rach were both pretty tired.her becos of sch and myself becos of a lack of sleep.and it was a time of 'silence is golden'.well and truly, both of us really like suzy but her energy is ALWAYS boundless.i got tired of the chitter chatter.haha.anyhoo, its of no importance.we managed.and suzy is always entertaining(not in a degrading sense hor!i <3 her)

it was Thumper pre-drinks and then No. 5 SBS to Zouk.got there, long queue, got in, laughed at Mambo-ers, actually began to appreciate the hours of practise and cute moves.(did u know "baby"<< when the word is sung in a song, usually equates to making a '8' figure with both hands representing a female body -- my interpretation of the move = sexist MCPs!)tried to go t Phuture, got in halfway thru the dance floor, got stuck, guy touched my ass, i yelled, moved on a lil, guys stopped and stared at rach n suzy, no one moving, couldnt take it, shoved and left for smoke outside. MY GOD LA.worst experience of a lifetime.so crowded and the cheekopeks would stop so they could just stand around some girls and so there was no more movement of people and just stand aimlessly.

on a better note, i met Jac and Ed and Melissa and Zhi Wei. All of them w their different posse... haha. Ed was gracious enough t take me home but lost his way.lol.

today i got to drink my granny's soup :) *smacks lips it was fish slices clear soup. and nicky rmbed to call, my VS stuf arrived at theirs today!gg t pick it up later. YYYYAAAYYYY.

P.s. im super happy so my shopping appetite has come back.thank God..i was so lost when i didnt feel in the mood at all.was uber weird. i shop anytime anywhere, its like more often than eating, i swear.(i eat alot less now,so i shop more often!!)

P.P.S. YSL and Gucci are having sales again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH

2007-12-05T16:18:00.000+11:00

im angry. first, my mom wouldnt let me watch MTV becos my nieces n nephews were coming over.she said it would distract them.kids arent kids if you let them do what they want and cant discipline them.its so freaking stupid.and plus MTV, they're not interested in music videos.they wanna watch ch 55 and dramas.and then i happened to peer in the bin as i was walking past and my granny had thrown away my Tiffany&Co. stuf.LIKE WTF.hello, my things dont touch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GRRRRRRRRRR.RRRRRAAAAAWWWRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and then i got scolded for not looking for a job.they ask me to stay at home and teach the kids and i cant split myself into different entities right!!HMPH.

LV nvr reply.hugo boss is hiring.and its a 5 day week.so tmr i shall try my luck yet again.was gg t club w rachel today.but she called after her exam and said shes sian-ed so wants t nua instead.i dont wannttttt...u kno im so super guai, i havent clubbed since i got back.im waiting to -_- so...after 3pm,kent said hes free.we gg t hang out at JP like hooligans.lol.oooh the thot of it makes me smile.

Victoria's Secret sent me another email saying that they shipped it.and the UPS tracking system said the package reached Changi Airport this morning at 2.02am.WHY HASNT IT GOT TO RACHEL YET???grr.super suspenseful. :(

:) oh happy day!

2007-11-29T05:19:00.000+11:00

a little birdie told me..it chirped in my ear and made me a happy fairie~!

i sent my Tiffany's chain for repair, i broke it while trying t remove lint and clipped(w a nail clipper) the chain. -_- dumb right.so after signing everything i walked arnd...heheh...saw alot of stuff i really really like.but hey, who doesnt like.sighs.one awesome xmas present was 200++

today i really did yoga.but not the 2 classes i planned to.i only did one.felt bad.i was caught in the rain leh.really heavy downpour and my cons got soaked.took all of my guts to ask a man with a nice big brolly t shelter me on the way from paragon to taka.asked sam t bring me a pair of slippers cos the cons stunk.haha.ate heaps at sakae sushi!!! :) bill was almost 50 bucks...ala carte.watched 30days of night.special effects were good, i.e. make up.the vamps looked more imaginative than the run of the mill kind, the pretty ones w blood.and they spoke....latin or sth.sam guessed russian. -_- totally WRONG la.haha.

suzy msged me.she agreed t go t Zoukout wimmie :) yay!super happy.and ching msged me.we can prolly see each other on fri cos she put me on guest list for Velvet Dragon.the name damn biang leh.haha so chao ah lian.i bet ed would say it suits me -_- im not ah lian can.anyway.might drop by as to see her!!imher alot.ah roy also gave me a msg back w a see on mon?:) yay.haha.im damn sianed but all of a sudden theres much t see and people to meet.

despite being poor, btw wh doesnt believe that im poor can -_-, i can meet up w people and nua, so i dont think abt shopping and how much i want this or that..it really makes a difference u kno?

i went for Lawry's Prime Rib Restaurant interview.the pay is $1200 IF i can earn the bonus of 100 when im punctual and stuf..alil unlikely so its say $1100, and i have to work weekends, 6day week, PH = XMAS, NY, CNY, Vday and 8 hr shifts.i think if they call me i;ll say i found another job and tell my mommy no one called......

辗转的梦去梦来不肯去睡

2007-11-28T03:30:00.000+11:00

红酒的香气已空气中四处飞
独自在啖尝未完未美
息间想起你也许该再聚
共醉一起这夜深
天色多么美你心里倘也兴起
盼再次温馨的相对
可知昨夜可知我累
可知我累极在闹情绪
来吧我这刻想见到你亲爱的
这晚因清风温暖荡来荡去
未愿共你热情突然淡如水
辗转的梦去梦来不肯去睡
来吧我真的想见到你心爱的
我再想去呼吸到你的气息
悄悄耳边隐隐的听见你
ON YOUR WAY
ON YOUR WAY
ON YOUR WAY
红酒不敢醉醉都要得你允许
逐滴慢慢尝十全十美
这刻想起你抱拥不要睡
伴我一起看夜色
勾起的忆记我的你的过去的
永远也只找到痴醉
可想这夜可想再聚
可想再做就浪漫情趣
《真的想见你》- Coco Lee

most awesomest song i've heard in a long time.but then again you know how they say the song you like best is the one most applicable to you, which is why u like it. listen to it on http://www.yymp3.com/Play/711/7346.htm they scroll the lyrics and highlight it for you according to the song, its like KTV minus the video then again, u can watch it on u tube exactly like KTV..so :)

im really tired and my body aches from yesterday's yoga and dance session.i feel really bad. i missed yesterday's lyrical jazz becos i was too tired after Hot Hour and Ballet. today i didnt go for yoga becos of the resultant aches... :( i lied t mom on both counts.God, please close one eye..

tmr jim and zhi wei asked me t go w them t zouk but i'll feel abit weird w 2 guys.i think they'll ask other girls t go but..yeah.otherwise sam said he wants t go for sakae sushi..hurhur pig out and get driven.honestly la, how t lose weight -_-

went out w janet and jamie today :) did lil, but talked alot.so it was fun.auntie maisie picked us up after the light shopping and we went t zion road for good ol' hawker fare.my 1st, since ive been back :) char kway teow was awesome but alil oily, had heaps of dessert tt me n jme shared, janet didnt like much of anything till she tried and then got into the swing of things hurhur.janet left her ph in jme's bag so we gotta meet again tmr so she can get her purse and hp back.lol and she was saying how she didnt need t eat the ginko nuts in the cheng teng cos shes got super memory.(jme said ginko nuts improve memory) LOL SEE JANET!!!

mom nagged tnight abt the cost of all these classes im doing.totally unaware that i hit the nail on the head, guessing that she was unsually nice abt the whole thing until now.i was waaaaiiiittting only. *ppfft. must go tmr la, otherwise i will kana agian.but its 1 am now and i gotta b up by 10 or so...sighs.

有你就夠了

2007-11-26T03:02:00.000+11:00

給我笑臉當你不在可以思念
終於感覺甚麼是永遠
我不怕世界善變
也從不怕路還遙遠
牽掛最後都溫亶蒏
兩個人的歲月
有你這一生就夠了
所有的尋覓都值得
我們的擁抱就像是呼吸
是那麼的自然又那麼必需
有你甚麼事都對了
不管是否還有挫折
能彼此珍惜是多麼
這一生有你陪我就夠了

i went on a huge-o shopping spree just before i came back, flew on the sat, shopped on fri.pretty awesome, i got double-tounged converse sneakers with sheep, nike yoga mat, 2 dresses(blue terry-cloth and black cotton) and pastel green shorts. :)) spent arnd $300aud. now kinda broke hurhur.but imma collect the pay that i was meant to get from Island Cafe last break and then mom is gg t facilitate Pure Yoga and Jitterbugs dance classes starting tmr!yoga 5.30-6,30 then ballet 7.30-8.30 and lyrical jazz 8.30-9.30 and then sneak into pure yoga again for a shower.heh.Jitterbug is at millenia walk so its gg t b a lil pain travelling to and fro.

met nicky online and since sister has exams, it'll b just us hanging out!hes happy becos i have duty-free ciggs -__- afterward planning t c if my mate can steal his mom's merc and go for a spin :)

hungry monstrosity

2007-11-21T01:30:00.000+11:00

jeepers, im god-damn hungry!!had subway for lunch and now im munching on leftover KFC chicken.

BIS exam went rather poorly, i didnt study until 3am when my exam was at 9am.so....urrhhh mayb i'll pass.Economics was totally awesome-ness, radical.i studied hard, my teacher told us all the chapts that were going to come out for essay Qs and i think i'll bring a HighDist home.whoo.haha.but Ella said im not meant to count my chickens before they hatch so...*crosses fingers.

after the exam i was so free, but i did shit all.i did go out on Saturday tho, we went to the dean, Ella, Sabina and myself.music was pretty good but Sabina hooked up within 5 mins on the dance floor and i ended up having to hold Ella's hand because she was self-conscious.my friends were all around so that may have been the cause; honestly i think its just her.she cares too much about the environment and what people think sometimes, which is why alot of people think shes verging on anorexia.still was a ok night, had fun dressing up.will update facebook when Ella gets her shit together and emails me some photos.i wore the orange dress that khaled said made me look like a tangerine but i thot looked really nice and was expensive, in my very long ago post. :X anyway.

also played DOTA at ed's after the exam which was great.haha i really did miss the game.playing when im a noob on real battleground on battle.net sucks tho.i told ed to take over after i was Lvl6, i kept getting owned;pawned.*^$##%&(*#@#%

after looking at the reggae stuff from the o'school site, (since janet took lessons) i kinda wanna go!!lyrical jazz was awesome as well and i really want to get back into ballet ever since i stopped lessons last year; it was painful moving away and becoming very motionless..i now sit my butt down everywhere i go.hurhur.lyrical jazz is kinda similar in the flexibility-movement sense and i might take some adult ballet at Jitterbugs to get back into the flow of things.there is so much i can do and it gives me a true sense of elation.YYYYYYYAAAYYYYYY!also looked up Studio Wu but it kinda pales in comparison to O'school and Jitterbugs.but they are cheaper since they have a unlimited-class package.who knos if i'll even last a week tho, im so fickle!>__< coupled with yoga, and strict dieting i hope to lose enough weight for Zoukout.but actually no one has given me a definite reply..i might not end up going at all.*&*&$$#@$##$%&^*$$#@ i want to PARTY.please....someone...heed my call.tag my tagboard and tell me u want to come with, k!

wh called me yesterday.i was completely over the moon thus begot this cheerful mood today.lol.so silly,he felt that i err...was too intelligent for him to handle if u get what i mean.anyway, he got over it and stopped ignoring me, thank God.super duper :)))

im back this sunday, the 25th people!!!!!call me when the week starts okie dokie?i miss all of u!!! *kiss

whiling my time away

2007-11-14T20:33:00.000+11:00

today, there was a tiny *bleep on my heart monitor, the little jagged parabola cause i talked t rachel :) haha we actually managed t get our act together and chatted on skype. only for 20mins cos she needed sleep -_- but we're def gg t end up yoga-ing tgt :)) 200 for 3mths, damn worthwhile.

im saving cash for shopping in Sg again. but i still wanna buy a car, makes shopping regretful; "do i really need this?"; exclamations of "how much?!?!?" anyway. transport weighs a heavy burden on my conscience, i do wanna get an old BMW, it looks terribly attractive..

then i whiled my time away reading a novel trilogy on Julius Caesar. funny how,when the exams become more imminent, to be exact less than 20hrs away and i've since lost my fervor that i started out on the start of the week. mind, the exam is the on the unit i HAVENT yet studied for. so busy with economics initially....

i realised writing about intimate issues here have always been full of caution and an internal debate. the people in the kno, i would have no objections to, but others (no offense), couples the wary and sama-sama feeling. but, then again, i dont think many read this blog.lol.

here goes, i plunge headfirst.family is important. u cld b thinking, "who dunno?" but hey, if u kno, and dont do anything constructive, its like not knowing. i often look onto others with envy.they have a full family unit, strong ties. i am not a have-not, but i relish the strong, intimate units.religion is something very erstwhile. many families that choose to advocate a religion,those that have God or Buddha or Allah, looking down upon them, the family chooses to uphold certain values that then pass on to the little ones. it is this that i find them closer to Puritan. of course, i mean that they are usually more morally upright, not all are, but more often than not, if the family advocates a belief, later in life, the little ones who are big now value the same beliefs.essentially,my heart feels envy and i wonder what God has in store for me. Moreover, i have been talking w Ed and the power of redemption and how much God forgoes till he will not take you under his wing anymore.that scares me.what if when the Second Coming occurs and he leaves me behind?or mummy?its such a terrible thought...

perhaps this isnt as pessimistic, compared to condemnation*dry laugh, but i hate being melancholy actually.i always try to be offbeat and happy. why waste time always pitying yourself or being uspet? it seems fruitless. this time round, it seems difficult to keep the ball-and-chain at bay. they attached themselves to my leg and weigh me down, so much so i feel like my face has been ground into the floor. i usually manage to shrug such anxieties off but i think 3 in a row has my tempo going mental. the internal clock swings its hands wildly, is time going backward or forward? am i being pedantic in trying keep up with the on-going , preoccupied world, or is the world slowly losing its patience for me? a million things scream for attention, but i keep getting sucked into a habitual ritual, looking beside me and finding empty space..

WAH BIANG.

2007-11-12T20:47:00.000+11:00

im dying, the temp is a hot hoT HOT 39degC.FUCK ME.sigh.and i'm meant to study all sticky and worrying abt my new tan >_< if u didnt kno, i have since relinquished my hold on being a tanned beachie.i now worship the moon.hahaha.i already wore a shitload of sunscreen leh!!!so irritating.summore the SPF alr v high.KNNBCCB co-co-nut.

im at the abacus labs in uni to enjoy some airconditioning.i was going to say its not very cold but actually i dont mind, i get super cold feet when its cold.my pet fetish- i annoy people with my icey popsicles.hehe.

im not really concentrating, many things swarm my cerebellum.studying economics - externalities and market failure etc.psh.it sucks.kinda stuck in a rut and cant move cos im confused abt the diagrams for externalities but Sam whos quite smart, went t SRJC, he says he needs t study for tmr's marketing exam and has no time for me...

slept for a really long time cos i didnt sleep 2 nights before.from 2pm in the arvo till 7am the next morning.hehe.ed said i actually slept my eyebags away.go me!! :)) i knew my beauty sleep excuse wasnt actually an excuse.

Scarlett really misses Rhett.why cant Rhett fanthom; that from the depths of her pulsing auricle,the ventricles do not close if only for him.ignorance may not always bring about bliss.

This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It
Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt
We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl
But We Gotta Make It Work
We Gotta Make It Work...

Sometimes I Love You
More Than You'll Ever Know
Other Times You Get On My Nerves
That's Just Reality
No, It Can't Always Be
Kisses, Hugs, And Beautiful Words

And No, I Know I Ain't Perfect
But I'm Around
Girl Time And Patience Is Essential
Baby Realize...

Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh

Thick And Thin,
The Bad Outweighs The Good Sometimes
That Doesn't Mean We're 'spose To Give It Up
My Problems Are Yours,And Yours Are Mine

sublime

2007-11-07T12:10:00.001+11:00

Let’s get lost, lost in each other’s arms
Let’s get lost, let them send out alarms
And though they’ll think us rather rude
Let’s tell the world we’re in that crazy mood.
Let’s defrost in a romantic mist
Let’s get crossed off everybody’s list
To celebrate this night we found each other, mmm, let’s get lost
-Chet Baker, Let's get lost.

oh and p.s., this is chronic posting, it feels like bulimia, i need to regurgitate a fuckload because i havent blogged in so long, please read the 1st post "downstairs" <<<< i miss singlish.

p.s.s. im having my driving test on the 21st of Nov. omg, please pray and make sure i pass....please GOD!!!!!!!!!

p.s.s.s. exams are on the 16th and 17th, havent started studying... zzzzz :((

p.s.s.s.s.i miss u lah everyone ESP RACHEL TANNNNNNNNNN..

p.s.s.s.s.s. why am i so fucked up?

As always, time passes me by in a whirlwind

2007-11-07T11:07:00.000+11:00

my my its been a long time since i've blogged! well, as per usual, i've created more trouble, bitten off more than i can chew, cut more cloth than i need, no wait, thats not the right proverb, but it has something to do with cloth...hmm.. anyway,

the ball was alot of fun on last friday, but i was the normal precocious me and i didn't bother to take along my digicam. so i dont have anything to show u, though i can post up some if my friends post any at all. i wore a gorgeous cream-bandeau-ed with ruched sides in a slinky finish to my knees(in black)*whew long sentence :) anyway, i bought the dress VERY VERY last minute.like the day before. thats why i was really glad i found it. but initially i was sooo petulant.heh. i tried on another one in this quaint shop that i absolutely fucking adored but it just WOULD NOT zip up over my bust.grr. it was a toga-styled white Grecian dress that flowed ever so elegantly.it was the most closest thing to which i had ever filled my self-indulgent dreams in my empty little head.boo hoo. anyway, maybe it was God's small chide to me, since it did cost $450 compared to my $190 one.

stanley was to take me to the ball and so off we went with another 6 friends. i enjoyed the no pressure setting because i have no idea how to tell him "u have no chance". he gave me a red rose at the after-party in a bar from a passing-by, walking vendor selling fresh roses :) it was swt.but he gave it to me despite thinking one of my friends, ed was my boyfriend. his exact words? "will your boyfriend mind if i give you this?" haha..i felt sooo guilty becos i cannot open my mouth to enunciate the words of regret and rejection.

so onward we trudge to the gory.

unhappiness nicks at my heart till there is an overflow, outpouring of self-despair. where have the little voices that tug at my heartstrings gone; they abandoned their lair when the devil appeared. for the fearsome monster is too righteous to behold, his temptations are only temptations because i aspire for the wrong things. is that then not his right of way; is the devil not then accurate in his depiction of my wickedness?oh! i do not know what is right or wrong, the line has been blurred, evinced by the wide river that drowns me. i cannot help myself, i know not in which direction to swim. soon, the dirty water shall clog my veins and i will be consumed. only the little voices survive, suffice to say, they feed on another's heart.they have escaped to where they shall be heeded.

sigh

2007-10-11T16:17:00.000+10:00

im totally down-ed. i didnt buy the bag cos rachel said it wasnt that nice. it wasnt a wow bag for 1k. so i'll just save more and buy another one loh. i love the plisse collection *mwah mwah.hahaha. slept for 18hrs!!!!so im alil groggy but at least got a v good body clock. woke up at 7.37am! :)) *beams. found this old T&Co. ring, so im wearing it :) i just hope it doesnt cut off my circulation, its a lil small.lol.

um im gg for the CBS Curtin Business School ball so i might buy the BCBG dress with the money and more VS stuff!haha.THEN, save the rest for a new bag! :)) hehe. janet also introduced me to many a good spree in singapore so i'll do my best!!

doing my korean assignment, i have to write a 40 sentence korean conversation using key words and etc.

worrying in romance land. it sucks.

penniless

2007-10-10T11:04:00.000+10:00

i am soon to be penniless. why? because im totally pumped and going on a spontaneous combustion; im going to buy a Miu Miu Drawstring Bag.http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/19075 yes, its going to cost me an arm and a leg. BUT it is soooooo mcuh cheaper than buying it from Miu Miu itself. i think. www.net-a-porter.com is having a sale AND doing free shipping worldwide. so fuck me, im getting this damn thing. at a slightly pricey AUD$750 it converts to about SGD$980 it is the most expensive buy so far. 100% authentic since Chloe's website also endorses it. but as i type, im reeling at the price in SGD. so im gg t do the smart thing. call my BFF. after all, i can use the money to buy Victoria's Secrets(AUD$300) and some See by Chloe dresses(also on net-a-porter) and also maybe a dress from www.nordstorm.com by BCBGMaxAzria. HOW? choices choices. well, off t call the BFF then bank in some Ka-Ching.

p.s. i havent slept, thinking about the bloody bag and doing my korean assignment and DOTA. talk about multi-tasking.

p.p.s i have 2 projects due this wk. KNN.

staying alive

2007-09-21T21:13:00.000+10:00

its 7.19pm on a Friday and im friggin school wasting away till my friends finish up a test and we can go get food.

had korean lessons today which is woke up for; therefore meaning that i have only had 5hrs sleep.boo.

got meera t come over as i did her hair n make up for the ball :) shes such a boy lahhs.haha.her mom buys her all this Clinque, etc etc brands rands stuff but she never uses it! thought she looked pretty after i was done :) if she lets me, i'll post up one of her at the ball. none of my closer friends wanted t go so i didnt :((

ahh.omg.its fri and the last day of school for my 1 wk break.im such a loser. but i do hope i get t DOTA later. heh.

p.s. hes nt returning my texts :(

shopping queen

2007-09-16T20:31:00.000+10:00

got all my mid-terms outta the way, feels great. tho i still have a few assignments due :(

on a much happier note, on Friday the boys, Meera and I went shopping :)) i bought an orange-based, yellow ribboned cross-back dress ^ ^ $147 and a Lee Denim dress with cute graphics in grey for $55 cheap cheap! both from Live. then i went and left Meera's Topshop pigskin shoes($250) in the Myer Departmental Store change rooms. I was so god damn sorry man!

Lucky for me, when i called the next day they found em and I picked them up on Saturday. Heh, took a lil detour and bought a pair of pony hair shoes with blue ribbon $45 and red mary janes with red ribbon $35. Only cos my fav shoe store was having a sale, otherwise i wouldnt do such a thing k. heh. um got some kick-ass gimmicky blusher that really stays light and long-wearing at Kit. dressed up in the new orange dress, gave myself a prep with the new shit and nail polish and had a rocking night at Metro Freo. got really tired so i ended up at home, safe and sound and asleep at 2am.

Haha, just realised what i wrote was terribly happy (and storyline-like) for some weird ass reason cos i dont really feel that way.

back t school

2007-09-05T08:19:00.000+10:00

man oh man, got a korean test today!i havent studied :(( pulled an all nighter for the umpteenth time. wh's been complaining, cos then i dont call him when i shld. i feel horrible about it, but this is the way i get t classes at 10 in the morning and do all my homework.

i had my first driving lesson on tuesday. it was uber exciting!hahah at first i barely let it get past 20km/hr then i got more confident and was cruising at the right speed limit of 50km/hr cos its a residential area.but when i drove on the road it was dead embarrassing since all the cars passed me by; i was still going at 50.hurhur.but what t do?i was scared ok!! i think i drove well, now i can reverse properly in and out of drive ways and enter roundabouts and exit accurately and everything is well.SCORE!:)) damn pleased.

in a mood.

2007-08-29T10:04:00.000+10:00

its 7am and i cant sleep.just had a cuppa (coffee) awhile ago.not a very smart choice. so anyway, blog surfing and thus feeling pensive. as i try to mull over the many people that pen interesting thoughts, i find that i am so bland.

anyhoo, i shall ignore that. Mambo was fun, i think my outfit was hot. hurhur. me n this chick ended up having a booty shaking contest, just randomly. was dancing with her and she SERVED ME, MAN. people actually formed a circle which then just got embarrassing. one guy friend of mine seemed sleezy after that night tho, but i'll give him the benefit of the doubt because he had quite a bit to drink. stanley was fun to just be with, had no qualms trusting in him to be decent;and he was.(and im not being cocky, i can tell he has a thing for me ok -_-)

DOTA-ing for the past god knows, 5 nights/days. we play 5 hr stretches, about 3 games. when we get out its like 4am and we have brekkie. heh. i am such a freak i kno. but i was so happy today, i usually take forever to get the hand of these games, lack in hand-eye-co-ordination i guess, but i got 2 kills man!!!whooo.haha not bad for a noob and ex-free-frag ^ ^ lol.ok now im talking like a nerd.

gahh, today is wed!i need t study....and my broken toe is still broken and gap-py. :((

2007-08-22T21:46:00.000+10:00

"Oh my, what a lot of coke you have!" that seems to be the take on coke i am pursuing :( gahh, i'm like the wolf of Little Red Riding Hood where i poach all i can see..so tempting..i drink too much and have become immune to the ludicrous amounts of sugar and caffeine in the bloody drink.

2 nights back, as i clumsily made my way out of the loo, i miraculously managed to split my pinky toe and the other four and sandwiched the corner of the edge of the wall in between. sad but true, and it looks something like this.the resulting effect is a purple-ling and enlarging bruise on the entire toe and i cannot walk properly. NOT FORGETTING, a large gap between the toes that makes me look like im Dobby, the house-elf.

i

am

a

cripple.

but, it allowed me to skip my test.heh.i cant get to the class like this right?how in the world i could split my toe AND viciously stub it i dunno, dont ask.

Stanley has invited me to the Curtin Housing Ball so im guessing we're dates. i have to from now till September diet! oh god.and go dress shopping. >_< dont really wanna do that. its bloody nerve-wrecking.and the metro "Back To School" party is coming, cant wait to sport my tartan skirt and white blouse. ^ ^

rachel babes, u looked stunning!if only i could have been there t root u!
p.s. did u kno root means have sex with?lol.oh aussie slang.

2007-08-19T03:22:00.000+10:00

been missing quite a few lectures and tutorials because i simply cannot wake up at 9 in the morning,heh.

freaking tired,went to the ruby room at Burswood Casino.got bored after endless dancing, crept downstairs and so i changed $50 in chips.played Texas hold 'em.won once, neutral-aled (forgot what the croupier called it;basically no-win no-lose) twice and lost twice.in the end i lost $40. kinda interesting,but no im not going t b a big gambler.

went for soccer practice today, my butt aches.bloody out of shape!

i sent wh a hugo boss polo t for his birthday ^ ^ n he likes it, i think -_- i dunno if hes lying.

couple of good videos i watched on other people's blogs or found myself.

he wrote this song man!

gotta watch; indians singing about arranged marriage to the tune of 'Hollaback'

ahhh...

2007-08-08T03:54:00.000+10:00

ahh...first step into aust and i was already bummed out.my flight was delayed for 5 hrs and all i could do was grumble, chat on the phone to pass time and shop at the airport. then i realised the weather was wet and rainy for weeks to come..sighs.

well, i bought a red longchamp tote and gucci print carryall.so im happy.also got more skincare stuff, some from Lancome ((:

today i went to try my luck, get my learner's driving permit. u have t sit a computer MCQ test and get 24/30 to pass.i got 23. my friends got 20,29,28. I AM SO BAD. i should not drive.lol.eeh.i was kinda pissed.

yesterday i was wrought with affairs of the heart.haha.so i tried to follow this recipie that got rave reviews but i ended up with chocolate cake instead of brownies.oh well, everyone loved my cake!!!!hahaha...

um i cant wait to get internet cos now i have to go out like ALL the TIME in the cold to make long distance calls.sighs.imu lah.

this and that

2007-07-11T17:51:00.000+10:00

sure to be sure, i shall make a note on what ive missed blogging.

two weekends ago, saturday had a very chance outing w roy,cheak and ching ((: us 2 shopped while cheak whined about visiting Mango before it closed.already shopped there so i had nothing to do!btw, despite it being a sale, i bought 2 tops that were $53 each!a tad disillusioning.Zara was pointless.queue after queue.really prefer shopping when theres no sale!!so i got employed by Tangs at Island Cafe.its a ok job, tiring because i have to be on my feet 24/7.however meals are provided and its pretty good grub!!pay is peanuts.it gives me a right to be out late at night tho ((: us 4 were meant t go watch NDP but that was cancelled cos ching didnt want to watch it twice.bought clothes, shoes, havaianas.clubbed at Zouk because a DJ was flown over and R&B took over the Zouk floor!finally had space to breathe!!was fun ((: wh bought them drinks like 4 jugs but we couldnt drink it all.such a pity.

rachel and i hung out, sorted stuff out.auntie jo-ann still loves me (((((((((: hahahahahaha.

met taichong and he drove around, ate random things while the sun was shinning, on the other side of the world!we thus inched our way to lim chu kang, wound down the windows and braced ourselves for....nothing.haha. the most errie incident - passing through fog in the middle of the road and between the RIP stones. drove further down and we actually went to the edge of singapore!like beside the coastal guard base.smelly though, im so in support w GREEN EARTH.dear me, the water was sooo disgusting.

this past week;give or take, has been ghastly.im down with a bad cough.but it certainly shows up ,shall we name it henceforth, my inability to cope with inferior services. i cannot take public buses, cannot do without airconditioning. haha my other wants arent to do with my sickness.

so the story goes, i cough incessantly in public buses, almost vomited in one the other day too. got new RAM for my computer(desktop) and external hard drive for my laptop.mommy has certainly been generous, including the cab fare to sim lim sq and back it came up to a grand total of $300+.she has also graciously agreed to let my buy a LCD montior (20''!!) to replace my exsisting one.that however, shall stay at home with her and not travel w me to aust!!! :((

went for a private full body checkup that mom scheduled cos of my chronic coughing.test results (stool,urine,x-rays) are back on monday so we wait to see if her fears about TB are simply unfounded.

mmhm,XXX has returned to XXX. idk what to think!for better or for worse, i guess? um be gg back soon already,work is draining but since i keep calling in sick!!haha!no work for me. i want t b able to club esp since its ladies night tonight, but -_- i know i'll end up spewing in peoples faces.at least the smoking ban has been implemented, the doctor did say smoke can cause a lot of irritation and was likely to be the root of all evil, the source of my hacking cough.

i think i can get my Gucci bag in a few days already!!yay!! ((: finally, a nice bag to fit my laptop.i saw a certain someone toting one in her pictures, pretty sure its an imitation, otherwise she'd b sure to put captions all over her pictures splashed all over the blog. a-typical cheapo. buy the real deal or you'll end up looking like a sore loser.

im pretty miffed by the flippant disregard during the chance meeting we had.sorely disappointed by you.

2007-06-28T07:01:00.000+10:00

time passes quickly; and i believe it happens even when ur not having fun.ok correction, these few days have been enjoyable;spending time w my bestie, but it was nothing active yet the clock ticked, fast-foward..

spent last wed w ching but i wasnt feeling that well, tummy problems.that one hr that i stayed i loved tho, we just meld into one can!!haha.roy was his usual suave self LOL.missed ty.realised alot of people look UHH different when their hair is gone.niway, after that pathetic one hr me and ching have decided we need t hang out more.miss u heaps ok!!

literally am so poor i think i just have to stay at home.also trying t get jobs.i applied at Stussy for retail asst yesterday.dunno if they'll hire.i walked in w my A/X paper bag aft buying shorts ($111 aft discount!)so im not quite sure if the air i was giving off was appropriate.still.i was very professional when talking t the hiring personnel.OH and applying at CKTang i wore a more expensive version of the watch that the hiring personnel was.felt a bit akward.maybe i should review my dressing.. :X

finally saw what MOS is like today;just rachel and I, feeling up for some boogie down.music got better only when it was coming to 3.by then i just felt tired.went to balcony,she had a beer;bad service!!!i had a coke light.chit-chatted summore.i really treasure u la. (: oh and we came to the conclusion that i am quite the wild child;which differentiates our character,since shes also more assertive.ok,think we'll play more gin rummy and then sleep!!ilu bff.

2007-06-26T03:39:00.000+10:00

at first i was afraid, the shadow of the solo banyan tree leaf swaying omniously, the Chinese migrant workers appearing from behind seemingly; following my every step, the loud rolling thunder, inability to hear over the cliched pitter-patter of rain and the lucridious amount of shapeless people awake and walking around at the same time.

but i grew to savour the wind which made me shiver, but also made it possible for the rain to pelt me harder.rain- unappreciated; people run to avoid it, as i do but i took the chance this time to bury the hatchet, embrace it. i never knew the taste was so much better than our treated tap water; and free too!stretched my length-challeged tongue out to catch a few drops.

rain; my version, adapted for about 30mins,blogger time.

2007-06-26T02:59:00.001+10:00

gonna have a run in the rain.

recent collusions

2007-06-21T19:38:00.000+10:00

oh dear, my grandma is completely bombarding me with nag(s) cos i havent been back these 3 days.i didnt call since my phone died on me.yes i should have called but im thinking 3 days away from home and letting them know wouldnt have sit well either.she always likes to compare me with my cousins which i totally hate.its very different when i live with my grandma and she knos everything that goes on while in other houses(other aunts n cousins) they get to cover up quarrels, fights, over-nighters, etc.*sigh* so i become the wild child.anyway.no matter, i think it should blow over soon.i wish i could come back and have the balls to just not let them kno?hell would freeze over..mmhm..

bought a few things those 3 days, hung out with wen hu&rachel on the 1st day then wen hu&friends on the 2nd and clubbed at Phuture on the 3rd.i went dressed in t-shirt from A/X, denim hot shorts from Zara and new LV handbag.puahahaha.lol :X also bought a Polo Jeans tee.planning t get this Gucci bag next month that i can use t fit my dumb laptop..lifes cool (:

so the holidays have been good to me, tho i collide abit with family...i love my mommy.i have bought really, things that i appreciate and treasure, as gifts.yeah..

by the way my uni exams just before coming back were so shit can?i forgot almost everything I spent the whole 12pm-8am morning studying, forgoing sleep and all..sigh..wonder what grades i'll get.love u guys.new no. is 93412715 so yeah gimmie a call if u wanna meet up.

2007-05-19T20:49:00.000+10:00

my voice is now hoarse bec i shouted at the top of my lungs for the past 5 hours today watching the boys play football against the other housing Houses.it was fun cos we just constantly boo-ed n called for fouls.i also fake laughed very loudly when they thought they scored when they didnt.(their ball hit the net but wasnt in.)i think if i get moved to one of their Houses, i'm gonna recieve it 3-fold!!! :(( BUT we won!!yay!!

went come and dipped into my home-made cheesecake!!uhh i always have a desperate urgency to eat cheesecake so i decided to bake. first-time was a poor effort but the second-time round i totally bombed!!(in a good-way) yay!!i made it look super pretty too since i swirled in some melted chocolate. ((: everyone said it was hella yum too!!

went to the city in between matches since the first match was at silly o'clock(early o'clock) and the other was in the arvo. got myself some jeans and rachel a pair since i promised to make it up to her ever since i trashed her shoes :X they're good-quality jeans so im good :)) bought Burberry scarf and gloves about a few weeks back.

now im saving for a bag :)) muahah.cant wait to be back in june!!

mmhm..exams in a month...booo...

2007-03-30T13:54:00.000+10:00

ahh.last day of the last week.its 2 weeks of unadulterated bliss!no uni!yay!!!!

got 1 assignment due in the near future, but since its not in like 5 days, its cool.TRUE DAT!um.my team mates are quite the pissy bitches tho so..

havent been shopping in awhile :( the lingerie povert-ised me.hmm other random stuf to put in, i have 2 big ass pimples on my nose.i watched ring 1 and 2 yesterday, so now i keep getting haunted by a girl in white with only one eye.lucky for me, i was to tired to keep seeing/looking out for her in my room.

going to a "singaporean" party tonight,its called Mambo which is fdumb.cos i kno the organiser and he says its more R&B than anything so why Mambo?!?anyways.hope i have fun.im dying to party.been bored to death these few days.

oh and jimmy cant go to the road trip we planned from perth driving down south.that sucks since he was our designated driver.charlie really wanted to go since shes only in for a few more weeks.after that its back t England/London for her so yeah.jimmy's a bit of a pang-seh-er. :((

boring boring boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whoa.

2007-03-19T18:24:00.000+11:00

well.things have been a little confusing these few days.thursday in particular.

but anyway on friday there was the beach bash in the Uni Tavern with Jaccuzis and sand all over the place.it was bloody cool and i got friggin smashed since my generous Kenyan mate passed me like 4 drinks and i had 2 glasses of goon(cheap wine)just before leaving home.2 of my other mates passed out which was pretty hilarious.when seeing the pictures they took the next day they were like "what?i didnt remember that happening"haha.music was a-rocking.

lets see, i'll talk about the guys i've met so far okay?its not like im being a slut btw.i think its nicer to put my thoughts down.oh and i dont kno why im bitching.i think im having PMS.

mark has clubbed with me twice and i think hes adorable in the sense that he seems rather innocent when hes already 23?he is also very nicely built.short compared t other caucasian males but hes got a bloody toned body.he raises his arms and its like PWRAHH! biceps.hah.its abit freaky tho, he doesnt eat carbos after 8,and alot more weird stuf a guy shouldnt b stressing about.he has a high sense of responsibility since he has 3 younger siblings.
imi is apparently a player but i dont kno how?hes very built,since hes a rugby player.havent talked t me much but he keeps asking one of my mates about me(whether i'm intrested) which i think is very dumb;hes already 20 -_-
jimmy is singaporean and he has a gf back home waiting for him AND married AND has a daughter.im thinking, whoa man?where are ur morals.hes ok good looking but very sweet.AND domesticated.he was so nice, cooked a chinese dinner for Charlie(Charlotte) since it was her birthday and shes English.
tory.hes norweigen and very hot, pretty boy style.i thought wrong about him so....its the confused part as pre-mentioned.
adit has been so nice and comforting.25 has a fiancee!shes bloody pretty (: which makes all of us go aww,cos he always says "my pretty lady".hes sorta like my man bitch, Cheak, though Cheak, no one can replace u la serious.-_- im having a hard time finding someone like u.

so thats about it.it sucks being far away from home still.im glad though, Koreans going super well,A+ man!Commerce is bad since ive got an 1500 assignment which kills.boring...

i guess thats about it.rachel, i miss u alot.

um

2007-03-05T19:23:00.000+11:00

wah fuck.im so fucked.i lost my phone on the way clubbing in the cab.dont remember the driver and its more likely someone else picked it up.also, i forgot my passport so i couldnt get in, which made the night even more fucked up.i made a total loss of about 350++AUD from cab, phone and kebab $$.

i managed to get a house on campus.the people are nice, partiers tho.from wed to sunday its like we're just drinking la.sigh.

i dunno what t tell mummy about my phone..its barely 2 weeks old.my poor baby :((((

suddenly im the popular girl of the block..mahaha.but anyway :( most of them dont look like much.oh oh but there are 3 norway-ians i know its nor-wee-giens but i cant spell.and they're fucking good looking.and by the way one of the guys who came over (there are meant t b 6 people living in the flat but somehow ours is the only "party"flat so we always have at least 12 people around.) read my palm and he said most of my life will b smooth and i'll have good money and travel alot.but like most other fortune tellers ive been to, i'll marry late."piangg* early marriage idea shattered again.TT_____________TT

thats it i guess.trying t put in a few hours here and there.i only wish my flat mates made me a bit more motivated!!!

giving u some love<33

in aust.

2007-02-26T00:37:00.000+11:00

im here im here..in same ol' same ol' boring boring Perth. people keep telling me, its shouldnt matter, you're there to study; but WOULD YOU enjoy it, ripped apart from everyone else? anyhoos, its all been decided for me hasnt it.sighs.

p.s. i kno la im complaining too much right?ok ok i'll stop.

been looking around for shared apartments and even sharing one isnt cheap.roughly all are $100++ /wk but for an apartment it quickly surmounts to $250+++/wk. so yes, so far ive been looking and not liked what ive seen.either its around a hella dodge area (dodge = grungy = suspiciously unsafe) and the room is new carpets, nice desk and chair and big, or its in the city where the areas fantastic but i get the study for a room, pretty shit!(this time its not me ok, like the bloody thing is sooooo small i can like take 3 strides across and 4 wide)at least they turn on the aircon..or on campus which is far far far away from the city but at least im with asians!*mock whoo*

uhh.shopped last last min on the last last day, bough a new slim slim slim (absluty. gorgeous) mobile and lots of facial products from ROC and Estee Lauder and Fancl, also got foundation from YSL (((((: happy la.tho i didnt manage to get any bags per say, i guess it was ok..hurmhurm.ive also been thinking that mhaha sounds and looks really good so im going t try n remember to talk like that and see if it catches on.mhahaha.lol.

met rach on 3rd last day and it was great, we understand each other so well that well, rachel hit the nail on the head with her entry!you dearie, have left me with nothing to say.and this is how we do our telepathy ay ay? (: mayb i'll take my passport and really change it to Tann, ah ah??haha nicky would laugh his balls off la ((((: p.p.s. see, thats why we were saying i shld b a Tann, even Nicky treats me like a sister.OH AND ur mom said she remembers ONLY me out of all ur friends.HAHAH rachel u friendless hilly-billy!miss u lots.rachie poo, i will find someone t treat u like he did ok!!hahahahahaha (((((((: anyways, once i get sorted i shall prepare a nice gift.only here i never see puffy sleeves :((

and its true, its true,
i really love you.
even if i hardly say it, i do!
its forevermore,
its the link that attaches me to you.

*blood red ok rach!

ho hum

2007-02-15T20:43:00.000+11:00

yesterday ching and I celebrated Vday at Phuture cos Rachel was tied up and had to go home. it was the usual, ('cept ruiwen whom i met while waiting for ching; who was late and i took a cab so as not to be late?!?!, said that it would be a cockfest.and he was right -____-)the club was full of guys.mostly ugly ones no less.danced with a couple.but got tired quickly and left.

vday is overrated like most people say.but ho hum.i think its because we're all single.anyhoo, its nice to recieve presents anytime so yes.i sorta appreciate it i guess.ching was damn sweet la, she bought me a sun flower (: love u ching!!!!

recently, mom agreed i should be not so lazy so i picked up studying korean.the book is not very direct and focuses more on reading than writing so i have to rack my brains to figure out the combination for each syllable!!my god.

i think rach is happy w her new squeeze and its damn cute lah.makes me wish i was attached too :( but im happy as it is now lah.

think im entering Monash.want to book my flight but FUCK LA.everyone is going back now and so there are no more direct flights can??!??!?till 6th March which is way way too late.i have to take a stopover which lasts 13+hrs *wails* so unlucky..

no money already.went shopping the other day for clothes and got 4 pieces ((: need a new handphone.screaming into the microphone is getting VERY annyoying.

no appetite either, sick for the past month almost, cough and flu!! :(( how?during chinese new year i cant eat all my lovely fatty snacks.sigh.

2007-02-07T01:03:00.000+11:00

i have extended my hair so it touches my ass. so titillating can! uhh. that means that its a refreshing experience ONLY LAHH. har har. um havent talked much about my shopping escapades you should kno me, i spend spend spend.bought Tiffany earrings and necklace, tommy hil polo tees, AX tee and other cheaper pieces of clothing. either im going t spend remaining cash on things like make-up more clothes etc or mayb i should buy another designer bag. not sure lahh. after doing my hair and buying quite a few accessories ( cordless hair curler to use on bus so i wont b late (: , and hair mousse, foam, comb)(p.s. wah, it rhymes!) i dont really want to spend my money in one go and also dont want to waste $$ on mindless items. TT_____TT boo! i just hope clubbing wont flush my money bye bye with my pee pee.har har. cos of the alcohol ok, people who dont get it. oh oh like right, i cant wait t buy designer skin care and make-up in the duty-free airport. muahahaha.i must make it a late-ish flight so have time to shop around.

also been very filial, today i took my granny to the h'pital for blood transfusion.which means like every 2 weeks almost must go once -_- sigh.i kno shes my grandma but im the only one who HAS to do it.

wah i found out today also, that thurs' are Smoove at the main arena at MOS.my.god.its.big.hahaha.so ok someone please tell me u'll go wimmie kay!-_-

爱

2007-01-27T07:27:00.000+11:00

I saw 曹格 on 娱乐百分百, yes i was couch-potatoing.he was so cute and affable when dealing with some fans who were playing games i fell for him.(nevermind my elitist behaviour okay)his singing is rather laudable so now im constantly listening to his songs.the blog title's change came from this and also the fact that chinese can "pun" well.alluding to the fact i like cam-whoring and the song's( 两只恋人)contextual meaning that i appreciate.

after reading jamie's blog which i was very surprised to see since she always gave up posting,haha(pot calling the kettle black,sorry) but her para abt God was touching.anyways, 曹格's blog too, got the wheels turning a little.

after so long, despite grumbling about being stuck in a rut they both made me feel like i had to choose between nightlife/love and seriously studying/churching.曹格 has no life because he works and every entry of his is like "desire to love". but anyway, dont make me out to be a bimbo but for me, here and more importantly in Uni, anticipation is one thing and planning is another. I know i could possibly spiral down the drug path if i rave there because of the big parties in melb and syd.otherwise, looking at it love-wise and social constraints is confusing.very repetitive i kno, but the thing is IT IS SOMETHING THAT BOTHERS ME ALOT.like seriously.i want to do well, complete honors and all but like i hate being routine=lax in attendance.otherwise falling in love is stupidly taking up alot of time.okay i think many people wont understand what i just said but its ok.after all, this IS for me to jot and sort my thoughts.

mmhm.sex has been on my mind for awhile.not as in me personally but you know, many friends of mine have recently lost their virginity. i keep thinking, is it something treasurable anymore?people have different opinions but i was thinking of it as a secular influence.

Questions that I should answer after all this rambling :

white or colored?
studying or partying?
love or weight loss solution?

okay its nearing 5am.going to sleep and drinks tonight, finally, alcohol to dull the senses.

bore boring bored

2006-11-19T20:12:00.000+11:00

hmm. so far. life has been so sedate i feel likeim in a home. sleep, eat, watch TV, eat, sleep(nap), eat, watch TV, eat, sleep(for the night).AHAHAHAAHAH the same things i do repeated in a day.wah. i just really realised the full extent.

um.BUT. i did go t a party on friday. um i didnt realise i needed an invite so when me and ella rocked up to the party they just let us in, cos we were chicks(restricted access for males) but we found ourseleves totally isolated since none of our usual clique was around.they all thought that needed invites. so we hung arnd .people said hi to me because they were alcohol infused, but im neither unpopular(haha just for the record) anyway. i found it tiresome to deal with the antics of ella. her anorexia seems to heighten her sense of conciousness around other people.because she doesnt do the TEE, and the celebration party was for the end of the TEE(A's) she didnt kno many people, but i must add she is popular with only a select few in school.(its the truth!)okay i realise im rambling but thing is she became upset about hanging in the main dance floor area and the courtyard where people were milling about. she proceeded to notify me that she felt unwell and therefore wished to shuffle on to the restroom. this is where we got tiresome.with out verbally communicating our actual thoughts, inferences were used.for gods skae after coaxing her on to the dance floor she refused to renage on her spot right at the back.on the floor.alcohol would have loosened her up but also she rejected it for there were calories and -_________________________________- very "unhealthy". all i can say, very difficult!!

i bought a dress (no rachel, it doesnt suit you, which is the only reason i havent got anything for you.

AND dear best friend, have a very very very HAPPY BIRTHDAY <33

2006-11-13T20:21:00.000+11:00

oh yay!!my exams are over.what a relief.just finished then me and my aunt(homestay parent) brought me to the movies.we watched the nightnare before xmas in 3D . pretty damn cool y'all!um.i also left my exam early.haha i totally rock.

nicky asked auntie joanne if i could come along shopping. haha i was so like omg sweet!rachel was even sweeter, she said darling you're like family . i could HEAR her giving me the -____- face over the phone when i was gushing about nicky.

aiyah sian.if i change my flight must pay sooo much extra $$ to change the flight and hotel reservations. $$ is the one thing i cannot waste!!!lol.

try this :

put pig, cow, sheep, tiger in order you prefer.

they are representive of the things you value most in your life.
pig = $$
cow= family
tiger= pride
sheep = love

at least i know the tiger and pig equate to the right things, but the others im not sure.haha.sorry! but yeah, of course i put pig first.LOL.im such a $ face.but if i knew i really would put friendships before money.they just dont have an animal for friendships, not my fault!!

2006-11-03T23:47:00.001+11:00

hmm. i tried it again yeah i kno -_- im very boring.but , it made the report more comprehensive because its so true! 2 time lucky (:

You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow.

You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

2006-11-03T23:39:00.000+11:00

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

whoa..i just checked out cheakies blog.and for me, everything is true.EVERYTHING.

2006-11-03T23:12:00.000+11:00

ok i sorta lied.because i didnt take the time off to study, desipte the limitations regarding my computer. well, NEVER FEAR! a second computer is near! (right outside my room too!)

um mock exams results A B D D D .wah laooooooooooooooooooo i failed 3 exams -_- but after moderating it with my years results, im a B C C C C haha.oh the irony. math and english were one mark away from B and A respectively.pity.

but ok. exams are on monday through to next monday.please god -____- let me pass all ok?

p.s. im going on a clinque shopping spree and toni&guy cut/dye after exams.WAHOO~!

oh my fucking god la

2006-10-17T17:42:00.000+10:00

im at an internet cafe because
1. yesterday i was trying to be smart and upload a DVD decoder and then use some hacker's crackcode to make the trial version a "bought version"..i ended up with a virus worm thingy.so ive decided to go MIA and not use it until i can bring it back to singapore and fix it.
2. i was bored and am shopping. while on Hay Street, passing by Louis Vuttion, i saw a BMW pull up. New, flashy, convertible, with personalised number plate.

A YOUNG GUY(relatively attractive) stepped out and a FAT chick came out of the other side.

I WAS STUNNED.so stunned i need to blog about.am still in shock.......

omfg how can someone be so rich.the cars here may be cheap, but for luxury cars, it costs at least 100K++++. life is so freaking unfair. how can that fat chick be his possible gf -_________________- i am so miffed.

ARGHHHHHHHH.*shock shock shock*

p.s. i bought a dress, shorts and a Marcs (as in Marc Jacobs OMG right!!!!) button down top.yeah.going home soon...my god the car -_____________- car...car..shock shock.

just for janet

2006-10-14T19:31:00.000+10:00

hahahahaha everyone should read cheak's blog!!!his latest entry says he tried to google his name but they said did you mean "CHEAP+hong+ian" .i was talking to him on skype as i read it.OMG i could not stop laughing for like godamn nearly a min.AHAHAHAHAHA.he couldnt help but laugh too.
see in sec 1 I was treasurer and he admits, he SO was a cheapskate. I had to hound him for money EVERY DAY.he was the last last last one to pay up.mind u it was a miserly sum of 50c i think because we were getting files.haha.but people change and he showed me up, during sec 2 he bought jamie a necklace to show for his affections.we were astonished by his lack of thrift. (: but its all good. hes older, wiser, spends more LOL.
everyone should also go to this webbie. www.jackd9.com ask me for the pw and username tho, its serious business. you can get cheeeap dvds, i swear by their good quality and everythings really new, as in just released. they will meet u anywhere and u pay them then. pretty neat!im going to spend alot alot of money to buy everything and bring it to aust.only hope they dont think im some sort of syndicate, confiscate and jail/fine me o_O boy.my mom will be sooo hopping mad.
p.s. lucky my mom cant see my bank statement. I spent $1.2K last month. -__-
hey janet. i went to ur blog and u said ur on a hiatus cos u gave up ur laptop; but whether u see this or not!!i want to write this cos u said u'd watch krn dramas with me on ur blog and so im really happy about it *guffaws*stupid i kno.

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